"JJ! ARE YOU READY?" Colin shouts up the stairs. My eyes open quickly as I look around confused. A knock at my door has my head falling back into my pillows. "JJ? I woke you up an hour ago to make sure you'd be ready on time!" Dad says as he stands at my bedroom door, annoyance covers his face while he sighs and rubs his hands down his face.
"What...why? I'm tired, let me sleep" I whine, maybe I shouldn't have gotten so high last night with Jordan and Alex...
"Y/n, we have to go get mom and Rose from the airport." Dad sighs as he walks into my room now, his eyes scanning the mess all over my room. Water bottles, plates, clothes everywhere.
"Can't you just go without me." I huff pulling my covers over me tighter as dad sits on the end of my bed.
"Mom really wanted you to be there."
"I don't feel well, just go without me you'll be back in over an hour anyway." I hear him sigh and feel the weight lift off my bed.
"Okay. But please can you clean your room while I'm gone? Or Scarlett's going to get home and do it for you." I grunt under my covers and soon after hear my bedroom door close shut. I roll over onto my back letting out a deep breath.
Mom's home for a long weekend.
Part of me just wishes she wasn't bothering coming home. What's the point? She is just going to go again after. Seems pointless.
But I still begrudgingly get out of bed, walking over to my bag from yesterday and digging through it to find my little bag inside.
I breathe a sigh of relief when I see my cigarettes, a joint and 3 baggies of coke inside. I grab the joint. Walk downstairs making sure dad is gone and then venture out into the back garden.
I have more than enough time to smoke this, get in the shower and at least attempt to clean my room but I need to find a hiding space for my little bag. I can't help but feel paranoid about mom looking through my stuff and finding it all. Then it will all be over. They'll crack down on me even more and it will ruin how happy I've felt recently. I can't let that happen.
My high settles in quickly, my head feeling like it's in the sky. My body feeling weightless as I let myself fall onto my back and watch the clouds pass over me in the sky.
I need to get up, even though I don't want to but I have to if I want to be able to keep being happy.
Huffing, I pull myself back through the house, grabbing a trash bag and going up to my room. I drift around my room, stacking my plates and bowls while throwing my trash in the bag. Grabbing my dirty clothes and putting them in my basket. Grabbing my clean clothes and throwing them into my closet and closing the door behind it, not without grabbing some clothes for after my shower.
I check my phone quickly. Seeing a text from dad saying he is with mom and asking if I want any food. I reply no and head to get in the shower.
The cold water falls over my body quickly. I recently found out that for myself anyway, cold showers help me calm down from my high but not fully. It's like they shock me a little to come back to reality but I always hate what happens after.
The need to be high again but knowing I can't or it will be too suspicious. So instead my hands find the razor and the need to be high leaves and is replaced by weightless pain.
I wrap my leg in new bandages I brought the other day. Pulling on my underwear and then my sweats and hoodie. Laying back down in my bed and just wondering when all of this will end.
Wondering why I just can't let myself be happy without needing anything. Why I just can't let myself get better, recover, be sober.
Knocking on my door has me wiping my face of my tears, and getting up to open it instead of just letting them walk in.
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LEFT BEHIND | Scarlett Johansson x Daughter.
FanfictionABANDONED - having been deserted or left. A relationship that seemed so easy to leave behind. A relationship that continued to spiral through the years as a mother makes a new life but seems to have somewhat abandoned her first. Left behind by her...
