LEFT BEHIND | Scarlett Johansson x Daughter.

CHAPTER 39 - DAY OFF. P.1*

I need to shower. But having a shower means getting out of bed. And right now I am way too comfy to even think about it. I don't know what time it is but both mom and Rose are still asleep. Moms arm is still wrapped safely around my waist and the least I can do is let her sleep longer. If I move then that is game over, she will wake straight up so for now I'm going to lay here in silence. 

I don't know what we are doing today but I know mom has it off and then tomorrow is the premiere. But I know today I have to buy Rose an iPad. I'm still in different minds over yesterday. Part of me doesn't want to think about it at all, I want to apologise and just move on from it which I know I can do because I have spoken to mom but I also know what my own head is like. 

I still feel guilty. I should feel guilty. Right?

Ughhh I don't want to think, I should just go shower. 

Well that really won't make a difference, I will just think in the shower instead of being comfy in bed. 

I want today to be different. I want to be a different me today. I want to be happy. I want mom and Rose to be happy. Today needs to be different. 

I look at my bedside table as I look at the hotel room's phone. Maybe I can start this day with all of us having a cute breakfast...Maybe it will help me and Rose talk...

I lean over slowly in hopes of mom not waking up. All she does is take her arm from my waist and roll over facing the other way to me. I quietly cheer in victory at her not waking. I open the drawer next to me and take out the menu mom put in there. I don't even know what to order. I don't even know what mom and Rose will want, maybe I will just get different things and let them pick. 

I decide on ordering some fruit, cheerios, bacon, sausages, scrambled eggs and some toast. Along with some coffee for mom and then some apple and orange juice for Rose, they said it should be up in 15 minutes but I asked them not to knock. SO in the meantime I am going to shower quickly. 

After my extremely quick shower and getting dressed, I make sure mom and Rose are still asleep; which they are and then check outside the room, as soon as I open the door and step out I watch as a woman walks up the hall with a kart. She smiles at me as I take different plates from it and run it back through our room and to the table. I thank her as she wishes me a good day and goes back on her way. 

I look at mom and Rose, deciding who to walk up first. Part of me wants to wake mom first so she can wake Rose but maybe I can use this time to talk to Rose...but maybe it would be better if mom leads us into that instead. Okay so definitely wake mom up first. 

"Mom, wake up...mom." I whisper to her while I gently shake her shoulder. Mom comes around confused, when she finally gets her head straight she looks up at me and sits up straight, worry written all over her face. "What's-whats wrong? What's happened? Are you okay?" She rushes out quickly as she takes my head into her hands. 

"Huh? Yeah I'm fine I was just waking you up. It's 10:30 and I got us all some breakfast." I say back as she settles back into bed, relief filling her face instantly. "Can you wake up Rose? While I make sure everything is set up?" I ask mom as she nods to me, she gets out of bed and presses a kiss on my forehead, whispering a good morning to me as she moves towards where Rose is asleep. 

I quickly go over to the table making sure the plates and bowls are put in front of each seat as I sit down and wait for mom and Rose. 

It isn't long before mom is walking through with a still tired Rose in her arms. She puts her down next to me and Rose turns to look at me but I swear she rolls her eyes and turns away from me. I look up at mom in shock but moms back is to us so she most likely didn't even see.