LEFT BEHIND | Scarlett Johansson x Daughter.

CHAPTER 54 - I BELIEVE YOU AND I TRUST YOU. *

Silence.

Yet I feel like I can hear everything. Like I can hear my heart beating. Like I can hear JJ's heart beating. I can hear the clock ticking. I can hear everything yet it is silent.

I can't bring myself to say a word. Nothing else needs to be said. She doesn't need to say anymore. She knows I understand. I know I need to say something but I can't. No words I can think of to say will do anything for her.

I know his face. I know his name. I could find out everything about him in a click of a finger but what will that do?

She didn't want a rape kit done. She didn't want to report him. She still doesn't. She wants to move on. "It happened, it's done." She had said once. She can't relive it. But I know she has. I know all she has done since she saw him, since he grabbed her, is re-lived it.

Furious anger races through me. I want to find him and rip him to shreds. Destroy his life. But what good will that do JJ? It won't. I'll be forcing her to relive it and I can't do that, I won't do that.

But now his face is lingering in my head. His eyes piercing my brain.

Everything I am feeling is nothing compared to how she is.

I finally find some words to say but as I look down to say them. Her eyes are closed, soft snores coming from her mouth.

Maybe nothing needs to be said.

Because she already knows. She already knows everything that could possibly be going through my head without me even muttering a word.

So I simply don't. I simply won't. Not unless she wants me too, not unless she needs me too.

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When I woke up the next morning JJ wasn't asleep on me anymore. Well actually, nobody was in the house. I frantically looked for my phone, feeling pretty out of it from barely sleeping properly and what JJ said last night. Before I could jump to anything I had a text message from Colin letting me know he, JJ and Rose are at the park.

I let myself breathe, my shoulders releasing all the tension from my body.

JJ is okay. She wouldn't have left the house if she wasn't. She would have locked herself back up in her bedroom but she hasn't. She has gone out with Colin and Rose, which if she wasn't okay she would not leave my side.

It brings me relief. Knowing she is somewhat okay.

But I am also stuck in the thought of what if she is faking it? What if she isn't okay and she is just hiding it from us? Hiding it from us so we don't worry or we don't think to look properly to see if she is acting strangely or differently.

I jump into the shower to try and calm my thoughts from racing all over the place.

By the time I get out, I can hear laughing coming from downstairs. While I make my way into the kitchen following the sound of awful singing and belly laughs. I'm met with Colin wearing an apron facing the girls singing into a spatula. Rose sits in JJ's lap as they both laugh uncontrollably at Colin. My heart is melting. I love my little family. 

"God it's like hearing nails on a chalkboard down here!" I laugh out as I make myself known. Rose and JJ laugh back at me while Colin pouts.

"Save us mama!!!" Rose practically screams when I move closer to them, launching herself off of JJ's lap and into my arms.

"Yeah, save the singing to mom, Colin." JJ says as I put my arm around her shoulders while she leans into me.

"Wow, really feeling the love today..." Colin pouts at us again, I can't even stop myself from going over and kissing it away, even when both the girls start eww at us.