"How's it been with Scarlett away?" Louise catches me off guard with her abrupt question. I've somehow managed to avoid talking about mom for a whole month, since she left to film Black Widow.
"It's been fine." I reply. Clearly wanting to avoid this conversation in general.
"But anyway, school has been good. I'm top of my classes which I'm still shocked about, and I get along with everyone well..."
"JJ, why won't you speak about Scarlett?" Well, there are lots of reasons why I don't want to speak about it. More than I can possibly think of right now.
"JJ?"
"Well, my hour is up, great talking to you always Louise. See you in 2 weeks." I say and get up off the couch and walk out the room. Colin spotting me and running after me from my quick exit.
Mom's been gone for just over a month. And yes some days it is fine but there are more bad days than good. But how can I tell someone that? How can I when I know they'll tell mom and she will just worry about me more than she already is?
I haven't really spoken to her either. Not properly anyway. It has been a weird adjustment of her not being here and not even just her but Rose too. Rose went with mom and I'm here with Colin, well some days anyway. Colin takes me to school but then nana picks me up and half the time I end up staying at hers because Colin is working late.
He is apologetic though. He constantly texts telling me how sorry he is that he can't get me and then promises to get me the next day which he does and I guess it is the thought that counts.
But that still doesn't mean I want to talk about it all.
When mom told me she was going to film, I had this weird hope in me that she was going to take me with her. But she didn't. We argued... And then I didn't talk to her for 4 days, but she also didn't talk to me either until I refused to get up for school and she kept trying to get me too but I wouldn't. And then she left 2 days after. She gave me 6 days to prepare for her leaving.
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"So you're leaving? For how long?" I ask her. My body instantly distanced itself away from her.
"3 months, hopefully. But I will try and come back when I can. You can call me whenever you want. If I don't answer, Rose will or my assistant will. It will be okay." Mom replies, my body freeing at the mention of Rose.
"Sorry, what? You're taking Rose?" I know she can hear it in my voice, the disappointment.
"Bug..."
"No. God! Is it ever going to stop? Her constantly being number one and I'm just thrown to the sidelines again?"
"Y/n, that is not fair. She is young and doesn't have to go to school, she needs me -"
"I WAS YOUNG TOO! I NEED YOU!" I shout. Standing up and pacing the room over the words that come out my mouth. I'm over it. She left before big deal, she is here now, well kind of anyway.
"Y/n. You have just started going to school full time last week. To pull you out now will ruin everything you've worked so hard towards." She is right but that doesn't mean I have to like it.
"OK, and? I can do it online! Like I had been. 3 months is nothing!"
"Bug, listen to me, it is going to be-"
"Don't, don't try and tell me this is fine. I hate how you're so ok with this?! Leaving the kid behind who you have before and having no care or worry about it whatsoever!" I don't stop myself from turning and pointing at her, aggression filling my words. I just feel so angry at her for leaving again. I don't want her to leave.
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LEFT BEHIND | Scarlett Johansson x Daughter.
FanficABANDONED - having been deserted or left. A relationship that seemed so easy to leave behind. A relationship that continued to spiral through the years as a mother makes a new life but seems to have somewhat abandoned her first. Left behind by her...
