Reruns (Elizabeth Olsen Fanfic)

Chapter 46

Shannon's P.O.V.
The words rolled out of my mouth on its own. It's out there, I can't take it back but I don't have any plans on taking it back. I know its too soon, calculating the span of time that we've been together and normally two months is not enough for someone to just decide to settle down with the person they're with in that two months. But with my situation, its different.

I feel it, there's one great damn reason why after everything that had happened, with the accident and my memory of her completely wiped out of my mind,  still fate led us back together and still feel the same way for each other after two years and two years is not a short span of time. Anything and everything can happen in those years. She could've moved on and found someone new but she waited. She waited for me for two whole fucking years.

"What?" She breathes, her eyes wide pupils dilated making her eyes look darker and now, I'm nervous. Her tone sends chills to my spine. This is not planned, I know. I don't even have a ring on me yet but I'm fucking serious, I'm dead serious about this. Its all going to lead us to just marrying each other anyway right? If that's what she wants that is.

"I ask you, Elizabeth Chase Olsen, will you marry me?" I repeat and she just stares at me before jolting off my lap and starts pacing back and fort in front of me. My hearts beating out of my chest as I start to panic. The one thing that I'm sure for her to believe me that we won't lose each other anymore might be the thing that might actually make us lose each other further and now, I can't do anything because its all on her now really.

"This can't be happening, you didn't just asked me that." She lets out a nervous laugh as if this was kind of a sick joke. Like why would I joke about something like that, I can feel the heavy cement on my chest weighing me down as time passes by and I still haven't got an answer.

"I just did."

"We're in a middle of a conversation Shannon and suddenly you're just going to ask me that out of the blue—"

"I'm dead serious" I sighed as the possibility of getting rejected tonight gets higher and higher. Well, she's right though we're in a middle of a random conversation of me telling Jake about the truth and finish off with me asking her to marry me. It is kind of crazy, but not to me.

"Maybe it was just a heat of the moment thing honey, I'm not forcing you into doing anything" She shakes her head vigorously as she stops right in front of me. "Maybe we should think about it first." Well, that hurt.

"I'm serious." More silently this time almost like a whisper as the pain grows and grows inside my chest. The air suddenly becomes thicker and its suffocating me. "Is that a no?" I mutter as I stood up needing to just leave for a while. This caught her attention and turns to me with wide eyes.

"No, definitely not honey. I do want to marry you but-" But, for a second, a spark of hope flamed in my heart until until someone poured water all over it killing it in an instant.

"We were just talking about how I feel about losing you and just telling me that makes me think that you're just saying that because you think its what you "need" to do. I'm not trying to make you do anything Shan. We don't have to do that no—" I stopped her rambling capturing her lips in mine and pour my heart out onto the kiss. She got it all wrong. This wasn't planned, it came out of nowhere but if I subconsciously said that what more if I intended for it to come out. Its an instinct, yes, it slipped out but at the same time it felt like it was meant to be.

As I kiss her, her hands travels to my side and I take her right hand immediately slipping my grandma June's ring off from her finger before pulling away and getting down on one knee. She gasps.

"I don't have the ring yet but this will do for the meantime." I gave out a nervous chuckle as I feel my heart beating out of my chest matching the throbbing pain in my head while I take her hand in mine