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Box In The Ocean (RB)

Rue's View

I hear mom talking to someone and footsteps come down the hall.

Da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da-da-da

The door opens and I see Y/n.

Da-da-da-da-da

Y/n turns the light on and I groan.

Da-da-da-da-da-da

"I don't know how you do it." I say looking at the ceiling.

"Do what?" Y/n asks.

"Life." I say.

"You're 18 and you have your whole life figured out. What college you're going to, what you're gonna study, what kind of life you wanna live — everything!" I say.

"I'm just not ready to be an adult." I say.

I don't wanna grow old, I don't wanna be square

"I can barely handle being a teenager with no responsibilities." I say.

What if I'm a bad role model, what if I'm scared?

"I can't be who I'm supposed to be." I say.

I don't think I could live up to the mother that my mother was
If I always just feel so unprepared

"You're not supposed to be anyone but yourself. And you still have one more year to figure out what you wanna do. You have people around you who are gonna support you and your choices. We got you, we're not gonna let you fall." Y/n says.

I smile and hug her.

I like Y/n, a lot. She's a good friend but I don't think she could "handle" me."

I might be too weak to fall in love
And I might be too much for everyone

I'll never tell her how I really feel.

All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'
But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

"Get dressed and I'll be waiting down the hall." Y/n says.

All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'
But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

I sigh and get up.

Yeah, I put 'em in a box in the ocean

Time Skip

"Maddy." I say.

Da-da-da-da-da

"What?" Maddy asks.

Da-da-da-da-da-da-da (Ah)

"Don't forget about me." I say.

What if they forget about all I've done?
If I built it up just to be no one

"Oh my god, are you gonna kill yourself?" Maddy asks.

I stare at her and she looks around.

"How are you gonna do it?" Maddy whispers.

"I'm not gonna kill myself." I say.

"I just mean don't forget me after you graduate. You're a great friend and I'd hate to lose you." I say.

"Oh, of course not. When my life starts going downhill and I've had my 5th child, I'm gonna need some drugs." Maddy says.

I laugh and she smiles.

"So you and Y/n." Maddy says.

"What about us?" I ask.

"I see the way you look at her." Maddy says.

"It's not gonna happen. If I were to tell her how I feel, she would laugh and think it was a joke." I say.

I make my own expectations for every single situation
Then break my own heart when it all falls

"Y/n likes you. Every time I see her she's trying to tell be what is doing. Rue this, Rue that, Rue is— everything is about you." Maddy says.

"She's a good friend but she wouldn't be able to give me that same love as a girlfriend." I say.

I might be too weak to fall in love
And I might be too much for everyone

"Y/n dated Isabelle Giovanni and that girl has so many issues. Only reason they broke up was because Isabelle moved. Y/n can handle you. Tell her how you feel." Maddy says

All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'
But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

"Y/n's going to college soon. What are you gonna do when she meets those college girls? She'll be long gone." Maddy says.

All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'
But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

"You better tell her." She says.

Yeah, I put 'em in a box in the ocean (Ah)
Da-da-da-da-da

Time Skip

"Y/n." I say.

Da-da-da-da-da-da-da
Da-da-da-da-da

"Yes?" Y/n asks.

Da-da-da-da-da-da

"I have something to tell you." I say.

Things you'll never hear me say
Lock 'em up to keep them safe

"Actually forget it." I say.

Forget 'em, let 'em float away
Things you'll never hear me say

"You've already initiated a conversation, you have to finish it." Y/n says.

Lock 'em up to keep them safe
Forget 'em, let 'em float away

"I like you so much." I say.

Let 'em float away
All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'

"I've been hiding it for so long but can't hide it anymore." I say.

But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean
All these explosive emotions I'm holdin'

"I know. Maddy told me." Y/n says.

But you'll never know 'em, 'cause I put 'em in a box in the ocean

That bitch.

Yeah, I put 'em in a box in the ocean

"I think you're pretty cool, I'm down if you are." Y/n says.

Da-da-da-da-da (Ah)

I smile and nod. She smiles and kisses me.

Yeah, I put 'em in a box in the ocean

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