A headache throbs within my head,
My heavy heart, it feels like lead.
Noon's sun shines hot, yet I feel cold,
As if the midnight's grip takes hold.
The air feels heavy, hard to breathe,
Troubled thoughts within me seethe.
Numbness cloaks me, skin unaware,
Something's wrong, a burden I bear.
I wander under the scorching sun,
Skin burning, yet I feel undone.
Back home, melancholy takes its toll,
Night falls fast, unrest in my soul.
This feeling is foreign, never before,
Then news arrives, my heart is sore.
Into fragments, it shatters, pain devours,
The weight of loss, its crushing powers.
Was this the reason for my disarray,
Death's scent lingering since midday?
Words echo, "Dear, your brother's gone,
May God rest his soul, forever on."
I hold my breath, pause the flow of time,
Longing for a moment to rewind.
To when my gut felt untroubled, serene,
But no, I weep, gasping for a dream.
Suffocating on emptiness, I choke,
A vacuum of loss, my heart broke.
The words replay, tormenting my mind,
'He's gone, God rest his soul,' unkind.
Oh, could these words hold different sway,
My body trembles, spasms in disarray.
Is this panic or the grasp of death's hand?
I yearn for an outcome that's less grand.
Heavy weighs my heart, burdened with woe,
Brother dear, make this just a show.
Don't leave me alone in this abyss,
How can I survive, where will I find bliss?
Who'll love me as you did, so pure,
Acceptance is not mine to endure.
My swollen eyes shut, tears' bitter taste,
On the couch, my sorrow embraced.
"He's in a better place," they insist,
But where's better when you don't exist?
At the tunnel's end, darkness resides,
No sight of you, no voice that guides.
Where are you now brother? I long to hear,
Your voice, your laughter, draw you near.
Come back to me, dear brother's grace,
I want you here, my heart's embrace.
Refuge shattered, lost in the fray,
Who'll guide me, love me, show the way?
'Accept his death,' they whisper afar,
But what if I don't? Will you unbar?
Will you return, from death's cruel snare?
My hope, my anchor, my desperate prayer.
For losing you, I cannot bear,
Death won't snatch you, brother, I declare.
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Paradox Of Life
PoetryCollection of poems about life and its challenges including friendship, loneliness, aloneness, love, depression, grief, betrayal and much more.
