Paradox Of Life

A Dance With Desperation

I have thoughts, crazy and sad,
I'm filled with worry, it's driving me mad.
What awaits me tomorrow, the next hour, the minute?
Could something terrible happen, or worse, within it?

Dark thoughts creep in, casting shadows of fear,
Painting a bleak picture of what might appear.
What if tomorrow proves worse than today?
Though it's a grim notion, it's hard to push away.

Look at my today, see how it's all wrong,
Cruelty abounds, nothing feels strong.
Even the air I breathe feels poisoned and cold,
This sadness consumes me, it's taking its toll.

What if I were to perish, what if I were to die?
Or take my own life, bid this world goodbye?
I'm trapped in my thoughts, surrounded by fear,
This sorrow engulfs me, it's painfully clear.

I'm lost and uncertain, plagued by self-doubt,
What if tomorrow brings pain I can't live without?
These thoughts race wild, erratic and fast,
What's the purpose of living when darkness won't pass?

Loneliness suffocates, it's a weight hard to bear,
I yearn for the darkness, for its solace and care.
Death, my savior, I see you draw near,
Rescue me from this torment, wipe away every tear.

Despair, my companion, you feel just like me,
Together we dwell, in this desolate sea.
Take me, embrace me, in your eternal night,
For suicide seems the sole path to make things right.

If tomorrow mimics today, with no hope in sight,
Suicide offers escape, a better place to alight.
A life without pain, a life filled with peace,
In my mind, these thoughts offer release.

But this battle within me, it's all in my head,
I plead for rescue, from this darkness widespread.
Save me from my thoughts, ease this relentless strife,
For I'm consumed by worry, of what I might do with my life.