Twice's 10th Member Haeju

Sunset

"Phew, it's been a while!"
I'm standing in front of the JYPe headquarter. I look up at the sky with both of my hands hanging on my waist. It's a really tall and beautiful building. It used to be just another building but now it's the part of my life. It's so meaningful for me. I have so many stories related to this building. But, you know, I'm not the one who feels like that. There are also staffs, workers, and... Trainees! They are what I'm going to meet today. They asked me to give a little class about being an idol, 'cheering them up' kind of thing. Hmm, I can't wait to meet them! I wonder what kind of people are the trainees of JYPe these days. I also already know some of them. I'd love to meet them again.

"Morning, Haeju-ssi," the ladies from the front desk greet me. I greet them politely while walking to them. We have a little chit-chat since I'm not in hurry. They're so friendly to me and I try hard to be one as well. Looking at them smiling at me makes me feel energetic. Ohh, what a good way to start a day!
I walk in the hallway to get into the lift. While waiting for the lift to open, there's a girl coming forward. I know her. Definitely know her. Lica, my ex-crush...
Kim Angelica is her full Korean name. She's half-Chinese and half-American. She has been a trainee since I joined JYPe for the first time. I used to be still very bad at social interacting, so there was a little misunderstanding between us.

I was interested with her because I thought Lica was a really unique girl. She was so friendly but in a really weird way. She smiled to everyone that, sometimes, that was her answer for other people's questions. Yes, she just replied to people with her infamous wide smile. Lica was also a dependent girl. She wasn't just clingy and so touchy to her friends, hugging and laying her head on anyone's shoulder. She was also often found accompanied by other trainees, boys or girls, when she was in a problem. I don't know, at least that was what I heard about her. People couldn't depend on her.
It was weird why I liked her. At one moment, we were practicing together for the first time. There were only two us left in the room. We didn't talk much but that was the first time she smiled at me. She was smaller than me. White, young, and pretty, although looked kinda messy after dancing. I looked at her eyes. I never saw those kinds of gaze before.
She was a really innocent girl. Helpless. She has so many problems in her life. Drama. People couldn't understand her, just like me...
She was one of a kind. "I will never meet anyone like her," that was what I thought when she called my name. I felt like my empty heart was suddenly fulfilled. It was weird but that was the first time I met someone as special as her. She was born special, I believe. "I want to get close to this girl," I told myself.
That was the first time I wanted to be a friend with someone so badly!

She's coming closer! Oh no, what should I do? She's obviously avoiding eye contact with me (even after all this time, sigh...) I guess things stay the same. But I decided to greet her bravely. "Hi, Lica!" I show my brightest smile that I have. The smile that's inspired by her. I just wanna show her the happiness that hopefully influence her.
She looks at me.
She looks annoyed.
She passes by without saying anything.
I'm not surprised...
I'm kinda sad because I know it's all my fault. I used to tell some people that I 'like' her and somehow she got that information. But she misunderstood it that I wanted her in a romantic way. It was never clear 'why' but since then, she always avoided me. I used to have a very poor social skill and, honestly, not sure what to do. I tried to talk to her but she never responded. Yeah, it's sad indeed but at the same time, I understand why she does that. You know what, I can understand her mind. I can feel what she feels. Like a child that's angry to her mom because not getting the toy that she really wants. Yeah... It's complicated but it's acceptable. Ohh, I just hope Sana is here to see her quirkiness.