See Me✔️

Goodbyes(33)

"you give and give till they have taken everything out of you and leave you empty
- rupi kaur"

Summer has gone by so fast, it was truly a summer to remember.

Me and the girls hung out every day, then me and my mom would hang out when I came back.

Coleson and I hung out a few days too, he didn't lie when he said he could be his old self again for me.

Nothing can ever happen between us again.

I'm leaving everything here, I'm leaving all of my baggage here in this house that build me.

I grew up in this house, I lost in this house, a little part of me died in this house. It'll always be a part of me.

I'll always find a way back here, but for now I'll be saying goodbye for a little while.

I think about how my dad and brother will be here forever in this house even if they didn't die in here, their memories are still here.

And I'll miss it but I'll always have the necklace my dad gave me.

And I'll always have them in my heart.

"Are you going to miss your house?" Dr. James asks.

I'm in my last therapy session with him.

I nod.

"Yes I'm going to miss that house, I had good times and bad times in that house, in that room" i sigh as I rethink everything.

"Do you have any regrets about leaving to New York? What are your thoughts on that?" He asks.

"I don't have any regrets, I'm doing this because I think it'll help me on my healing journey. But I will miss my mom, Evelyn, Violet and my favorite therapist" i say smiling.

He smiles in return, "I'm so proud of you Stella! You've come a long way" he says.

Making me cry a little, I wipe my tears away with the tissue he gives me.

"Why are you crying Stella?" He questions.

I take a deep breath, "I'm just feeling overwhelmed with everything, I hope I'm making my dad proud, I hope I'm making the right decision in moving to New York" i say as more tears spill out.

"It's okay! Your dad is so proud of you, how could he not be? You are an amazing person and if you feel like you didn't make the greatest decision you can always come back."

His speeches always make feel so much better.

"Thank you Dr. James, I'll miss you so much" i say

"I'll miss you too kiddo, be good for me alright"

I nod.

Our time is up and i head home, i leave tomorrow night.

But I'll have to say goodbye to everyone today, tomorrow I'll be busy with all the finishing touches.

Lana doesn't know I'm leaving neither does Mason, only the girls and boys know.

I asked them not to say anything to them about me and they promised they wouldn't.

Once I get to my driveway I notice a few cars there. I park mine behind one of them instantly recognize as Noah's car.

The boys and girls are here, i turn off the car and get out.

I head up to my house, i get in and see them all in the living room.

"What are you guys doing here?" I ask them surprised to see them.

"We came to say goodbye to our favorite girl" Noah says earning a slap from Evelyn. We all laugh.

"Ow!" Noah says in pain, she slaps hard. That's why no one ever messes with her.

"Aww! Guys! You guys are so sweet to me" i say hugging Noah, Blake joining us along with the girls making it a group hug.

"We'll miss you so much!" Blake says, making me want to cry more.

"I'm so sorry for leaving" i say to them my voice already breaking.

Noah shakes his "No! Don't be sorry, we get it" he says, Blake agrees.

"We understand, just do whatever you need to do stells" Blake says, i hug them both separately.

They each hug me tightly and promise to keep in touch.

Soon after they leave.

"What do you say last sleep over ever?" Violet says waving her bag for emphasis.

I laugh nodding, "of course!" I say.

We spend the rest of the day making cookies and cupcakes, eating them and watching movies.

We do face masks, paint each others nails, do our makeup, take pictures and post them on our socials.

The night was fun, the best sleepover we've had in a long time.

I love these girls with my whole heart.

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I was listening to the song above while writing this chapter and I wanted to cry lowkey