new beginnings {dahyun x fem reader}

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a/n; bold; english - italics; memory - regular; korean

"do you want to play with me? i don't have any friends.." the small shy girl asked.

"who are you? i haven't seen you here before"

"i'm new here.. you can call me umm dede!"

"well if i can't know your name you can't know mine so.. i'm nini" i decided to play along with her repeating name. we sat and played during recess, we always played together. then one day, we're playing and she gets hurt! i grab the bandaid my mom always had me keep for emergencies.. i gave it to dede, and i gave her a hug because she was crying! poor girl, a couple more days of playing together at school, but then i never see her again!

"i just wish i could meet you again, dede, i never even got to know your real name." i whispered to myself. maybe in another life, i hope she's doing well. anyway, it's time for me to get up and go to work. i've really been thinking about whether or not i should just drop out before the semester starts. it's a good job, good pay, but i worry it may not be consistent? if that makes sense. what if one day i just let go.. i don't know maybe i should be hopeful. after getting myself together and eating breakfast, i made my way over to the studio. before i left i made extra breakfast for the girls, hopefully they'll eat it. i've always liked to cook. i know this kind of goes against my whole solo persona, but i figured why not be nice? after all, they sat with me and had lunch with me yesterday.

"goodmorning y/n! how was your night?" dahyun asked me, her smile can brighten anyone's day.

"hi dahyun, it was fine, how was yours? oh also i brought you girls some breakfast!" before anyone could respond, momo came rushing in and grabbing the food. man that girl can eat, she's hilarious.

"someone was hungry" i laughed at momo just huddling over in the corner getting ready to eat

"she woke up late, didn't have a chance to eat, and even if she did, she can also eat more. she loves food." jeongyeon chimed in.

"y/n this food is amazing. please you have to cook for us sometime again." momo says, mouth full of food of course.

"of course, i'll make you guys dinner sometime!" knowing people like my cooking does make my heart happy. i'm all about creativeness, anyway i can express myself i will go for. maybe that's why i love art and photography. the girls get ready to start their practice, and by that i mean everyone is trying to get momo to finish up and start stretching. doing the usual, i get everything photographed and recorded. when they took a break i felt my phone vibrating and saw that my mom was calling, so of course i had to take it.

"hello?"

"y/n! hi honey how is everything?"

"hi mom, everything is good. how are you and dad doing? is everything okay?" i only felt concerned since it was kind of out of the blue, but i also figured it was probably nothing. just that they wanted to check up on me.

"yes everything is okay. i was just thinking about you and was hoping everything was going smoothly. what are you up to? classes haven't started yet right?"

"no not yet, i actually just got a job, and it's really good. i'm not sure if i will continue classes or not with how good this is, but the decision hasn't been made yet."

"a job already? what do you do y/n?" to be honest, i was kind of scared of her reaction, but what more can she do from across the world?

"i'm a photographer and videographer for JYP entertainment. i work with music groups recording any dance practices, any promotions they need or just photoshoots. it's a really good job, and i'm really happy."

"that's great to hear, i know that your dad and i never gave you our full support, but as long as you are happy, we will support you always. we'll let you get back to work now, keep us updated. we miss you dearly, and don't forget that we love you!"

"i love you too mom, bye!" with that, i hung up the phone. the girls were staring at me, i'm not sure if they were expecting something or not.

"wow y/n your english is really good" jihyo said

"that's because i lived in america all my life jihyo, i just studied korean on the side. remember i told you?"

"well, yeah, but it's amazing how fluently you speak korean just for learning on the side." mina chimed in. after a few minutes of talking, just again they start their practice.

"we will never approve of what you do. photography isn't a good career. you want all these school's costing an arm and a leg just to do what? snap a photo? go to school to be a nurse or something, something useful. do something good with your life."

"your mother's right. you aren't going to get anywhere just doing this. it'll take you forever just to get there. just do something to support yourself."

"everything will take me forever to get there, it doesn't matter what the job is. it doesn't matter the field. everything is going to take forever." i retaliated with tears forming in my eyes. i couldn't believe that they had no faith in me. they didn't trust me to be able to do anything.

"you're never doing this and that is final."

"you can't tell me how to run my life! this is my life and i will do whatever it takes to be successful and to be happy. i know i can do it because i believe in myself, unlike you guys!" i snapped and ran away to my room. i wish it was never this way. why couldn't i just be happy.

"y/n you come back here this instant! we aren't done talking!" i started to pack stuff up. i wanted to get out of here, but i also knew i had no where to go. it would be impossible. regardless, i left the house. i grabbed my keys and just walked, walked until i couldn't anymore. i ended up at my best friend's house.

"y/n what's wrong?"

"my parents don't support me, they are trying to force me into becoming something i don't want to be. i just wanted to get away, and i ran out and ended up here." i talked so quickly, i didn't even know it was possible to talk that quickly

"first, take a deep breath, calm down and let's talk it through..." 

"y/n, everything okay? you look zoned out." tzuyu was shaking her hand in my face and i realized i had spaced out. i didn't even realize a tear fell from my eyes. i could tell she was waiting for a response, but i just left. i needed to get out and collect myself. so i ran to the bathroom. i let everything out, until i heard a soft spoken voice.

"y/n, what's the matter?" the voice asked

"nothing, i'm fine."

"you don't have to hide it, you can talk to me." the girl said. i thought about who it was, but didn't open the door to confirm my thoughts.

"i'm okay. there's nothing to talk about." honestly, i don't even know if i'm sad or happy. i'm kind of in the middle. happy my parents are finally supporting my dreams, but sad about what happened in the past.

"just open up, i'm right here. no one else, just me." eventually i caved in and opened the door..