new beginnings {dahyun x fem reader}

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"well, it started when i was in eighth grade. i was figuring out who i was at the time. i knew i had liked girls, but i kept it a secret. then one day, i started dating this girl, her name was aly. everyone around me just figured she was my best friend, but she was more than that. she was my first girlfriend, my first love, and more. she made me feel like i could just be me. when we got to high school, things started to change. we were maturing, and growing, we were an on and off couple because we thought we knew what love was. eventually we made our way back to each other and it was great. at least that's what i thought. i didn't realize how toxic she was. she was always manipulating me, controlling me, she always loved her mind games. she made me lose all my friends, lost the trust among my town. she spread lies about me, she told everyone i was a desperate and suicidal girl. that i was seeking attention. one day i overheard her saying she could never truly love me and that she just felt bad for me. i confronted her about it, and obviously she denied it. she made me lose hope for the world. even after confronting her, she still stayed with me. even though i was with her, i was completely alone. at the time i was going back and forth with my parents, arguing almost all of the time. i had no one. she was so manipulative she made me quit my jobs, she made me lose my friends, she made me lose my parents. it wasn't until she finally broke things off that i realized how bad it was. even today i find myself doing things that i never did before. i panic when i'm late because she made me feel bad about being late, but i panic if i'm too early because again, she made me feel bad. little things were because of her. now her being back is making me go insane. she's so good with mind games and spreading lies that i don't want it to fall back on you all. you're all so wonderful and deserve the world, i-" i was cut off by dahyun who was speaking for the group

"y/n, you have been nothing but kind, sweet, and caring towards us. you are who deserves the world. every morning we all wake up happier than we once did because of you. ever since you came into our lives, we look forward to something better. we love spending time with you, and time after time you prove to us that we can trust you, even when we first met. there is no way that she will drag us down. she wants to play games, but we'll play her back. the second she does something, we'll mirror her, but better. we'll be right here defending you at all times." all the other girls nodded in agreement

"you all still deserve the world though" i said while chuckling

"that's not the point right now though y/n" tzuyu said

"we are all extremely lucky to have you, y/n. thank you for always being so sweet and genuine to us, and thank you for opening up. we know it wasn't easy, but we're proud of you." after hearing those words from momo, i started to cry. we all shared some hugs, and laughs. it felt good being with people who loved me. who understood me. i didn't even realize that i had slowly dozed off, but i woke up when i felt someone carrying me. after they laid me down i opened my eyes to see who it was.

"dubu? is that you?" i asked, squinting, because i was so tired.

"yes my love, is there something i can do for you?"

"please come lay with me and help me fall asleep again" i said

"of course, give me one second to finish getting ready for bed." she smiled at me and went to the bathroom to get ready to go to bed. she came back shortly, and snuggled right up next to me. holding me tight, like she was scared i wasn't okay.

"y/n, i hope you know that everything she did to you, and everything you heard at the airport aren't true. you're so incredibly strong and amazing. anyone would be lucky to have you in their lives and i know for a fact that i am the luckiest girl in the world. you amaze me everyday with your many talents. you always bring warmth and comfort our way. thank you for all you do, but always remember that you are so so strong. she isn't going to win. i promise you." i started to cry, i was so vulnerable. she held me tighter as i cried.

"i'm so thankful for you. i'm so thankful for the rest. i don't know what i'd do without any of you. thank you for giving life a whole new meaning. thank you for giving me a new beginning." i managed to get out without crying

"i know we say this as a greeting, but i'm being so sincere and meaningful with you right now y/n. you are one in a million, and i'm so so so happy, that soon i'll be able to call you mine." i cried even more, but this time out of happiness. 

"i'm not sure what i did to deserve you dahyun"

"you were just yourself, being yourself will always be more than enough. you are more than enough." she was so touching tonight, i mean she's always sweet, but the sweetest tonight. i know with everything going on she just wants to help, which is why she's being extra sweet. i'm not complaining or anything, i find it quite cute. i gave her a kiss on the cheek and snuggled closer to her. we laid like this for 10 minutes just in silence. it was comforting, i was comfortable. eventually i fell asleep, but i was lightly sleeping. i heard the door open, but i couldn't seem to open my eyes since i was so tired. 

"is she asleep dahyun?" i can hear mina's voice.

"yeah, she is. it's been a rough day and night for her so i'll just let her sleep." dahyun replied

"take care of her for us, we're going off to bed now. goodnight dubu" i could hear sana that time.

"goodnight girls, sleep well" soon after, the girls left and all parted ways. dahyun was slightly fixing her position.

"i know you're asleep right now, y/n, but i just want you to know that since the day i met you i knew you'd be special to me. something pulled me closer to you. not the ground though, since you know i fell and everything, i always admired you from afar, and i'm sorry i wasn't able to see how badly you were hurting. you deserve the world and more, and i hope that i can give that to you. i want to be your person, for the rest of our lives. i want it to always be you. even if we aren't officially together yet, i know my feelings towards you are genuine. thank you for always being so gentle and generous. i like you so much, y/n, not even, i love you so much, and i can't wait until i get to tell you that to your face everyday. goodnight, my love." i hoped i wasn't dreaming anything, because if i were, i think i'd start crying when i woke up.