new beginnings {dahyun x fem reader}

10

i leaned in, and i kissed her. something about the moment, the way the moon and the stars were shining. the peace and quiet throughout the city. in that moment, we were the only beings in the universe. we kissed for what felt like 5 minutes, but was really just a few seconds. we pulled apart and suddenly all my confidence was gone. i quickly started to apologize.

"dahyun i'm so sorry, i don't know why i just did that, it just felt rig-" i was cut off to her pulling my face in for another kiss. this one lasted longer. it was full of words that were never said. feelings to be felt, passion to be spread. our lips moving in sync. after a minute we both needed to catch our breath.

"i like you, so much. i've tried to push the feelings away, but i can't do it anymore, y/n. you are the greatest person to ever walk into my life. ever since we were little, you were always with me. then we ran into each other again, you didn't recognize me, but i recognized you. i thought it was fate, bringing us together, because every time i expected you to not show up, you were right there. i've liked you for so long, and i don't want to lose my chance again to tell you. so here i am, at 3 in the morning, pouring my heart out to you." i started tearing up, everything she said was so beautiful. i know i've started to like her, but i'm afraid to. i'm afraid to mess something up, i'm afraid that because of the toxic hell i was put through, that i'll end up being the toxic one. i shook away those thoughts because i could see her waiting for a response.

"dubu, everything you said was so touching. you are truly a gift, and to be liked by you is the most wonderful being to ever grace this earth, but.." i can see her internally freaking out, worried by what i might say

".. but i'm scared. i know i like you, but i'm scared to like you. everything that happened back at home, i'm scared that i'll fall and lose you, i don't want to lose you. every second spent with you is the greatest of my life. i don't want to risk anything, but i want to be with you. i'm so conflicted because i'm so scared, dahyun. i like you so much." tears are streaming down my face.

"then i'll wait, i'll prove it to you that you won't lose me. i'm right here and i'm not going anywhere. i will gain your trust, and i'm willing to wait as long as it takes. healing takes time, and sometimes we may never fully heal, but that's okay. i'll be with you every step of the way, i'll be patient with you, that's how much you mean to me, y/n. when you are ready, then we can leap together, i'll never let you go through anything alone." i couldn't say anything, i could only nod my head, she knew what i wanted to say, even if i didn't

"come on y/n, let's try to get some rest now" i closed my laptop and put everything away. usually when we go to bed she's laying on me, but tonight she held me. she held me tight, like i was going to disappear in the morning. i started to doze off, only to be left with one lingering thought

"what does she mean ever since we were little..?"

we wake up, it's around 7am. neither of us expected to wake up this early especially with our late night. i had teared stained cheeks and slightly puffy eyes. i made my way up to the bathroom to freshen up, but unfortunately, the eyes were going to be puffy for a bit. when i came out of the bathroom, i noticed that dahyun had ended up falling back asleep. i texted mina, mainly because i needed a little bit of advice.

mina

hey mina, are you awake? i know it's early.

yeah, i am y/n. are you okay?

no, i need some advice.

what's going on?

dahyun and i kissed last night...

omg!! how was it? was it good? wait.. what do you need advice on? was it bad?

no, the kiss wasn't bad, it was good, i initiated it actually, but i'm scared.

what is there to be scared of? you both like each other

i know, but i'm scared that i'll hurt her. i was treated so badly, and i'm scared that because of that, my trauma will make me treat her bad. i don't want to hurt her, and i don't want to hurt anyone else around us. i want to be with her, but i'm terrified.

i see, y/n, but you also can't hang onto a 'what if' thought. life is about taking risks, i mean you packed your life for a fresh start. take this opportunity, make this your fresh start. the past no longer exists. this is your now.

you're right, thank you mina. i'm going to try and get some rest again, i didn't sleep too well.. or long.

alright y/n, i'll call you guys if anything comes up!

thank you mina

anytime, y/n!

after our conversation ended, i put my phone back on the nightstand and tried to fall back asleep. in the process i felt dahyun wrap her arms right back around me, as if we hadn't had moved at all. i sat and thought about everything mina said. she's right. i did just leave everything behind for a fresh new start, why am i holding onto something i'm trying to forget? the more i thought about it, the more stressed i was. i felt like i needed to just sleep on it, and eventually i did. after a couple hours, i woke up and saw breakfast on the nightstand, and a note right next to it.

"goodmorning, y/n! i got you some breakfast, i figured i'd let you sleep since you were up late last night. i hope you slept well, the girls and i just went for a stroll! we'll be back soon. eat up! relax today! see you soon - xoxo dahyun"

that made me tear up, i know she cares deeply, and it means so much. i freshened up once again, and the puffiness from my eyes are slowly going away, but it's still there. i sat at the table and continued to work while i ate the breakfast dahyun left for me. i put my headphones on and just started playing music. i once again got lost in my work, that so much time had passed. i felt arms wrap around me, and a soft kiss placed on my forehead.

"hi y/n, you're always hard at work aren't you? you should take a break since we're on a free day." i chuckled at her words

"you know i don't take many breaks, but how was your walk dubu?"

"it was good, i took some pictures so it was like you were with us!" she is the cutest thing ever. she scrolled through the pictures, and i kept thinking about what mina had told me. i ended up staring at her while lost in thought.

"y/n? are you okay? why are you staring at me like that?" she was concerned, not weirded out.

"i want to take this leap with you, dubu."