Jackson Family Values ✔️

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42| One on one

Tamar's POV

Today is the last episode that is airing of us being on the show and I'm so happy. All of us have cried so much and I'm just ready to go home. We've realized our mistakes and apologized to each other. Well most of us, Evelyn and Michael felt like they didn't have to apologize to Toni for hurting her and that made me upset. I interjected before Iyanla shut me down. She told me that it's a problem between Toni and my parents, not Toni my parents, and me. Of course, I understood that but they're grown and need to own up to their mistakes.

"Hello, Tamar." Iyanla said to me and I smiled. Today is our one on one session and we can talk about whatever we want. What we learned from this experience, what we're going to do better, or what we're not going to do anymore.

"Hi, how are you?"

"I'm good and you?"

"I'm doing well, could be better."

"Tell me what could be better?"

"We can start with my mother believing me and then accepting Toni..."

"If that's what she wants." She told me and I nodded.

"Yeah, if that's what she wants." I corrected.

"Why do you want your mother to believe you?"

"It will feel good if she does. A mother is supposed to believe you even if you are lying, which I'm not. I just... I can't believe that she put a man over me, her daughter."

"I'd be hurt too if my mother did that to me. Where's the guy now?"

"That's the thing, he's in jail for touching other children too including me and she still won't believe me. I don't know if he brainwashed her or if she just doesn't believe me. It hurt me when I was younger and it hurts me now. I hate her for that... so much." I said as tears fell down my face. She handed me a tissue and I thanked her before wiping my tears.

"And then we stopped speaking to each other, well I did. I thought it would make her come to her senses but it just drifted us apart. I hated that also because that's when I needed her the most... I didn't care because I was around Toni and Janet and other people that loved me but... I still can't believe she did that."

Toni's POV

"Hi Toni, how has the last couple of days been for you?"

"Eh..." I said and she laughed.

"Tell me about it."

"It's a lot. Mostly about Evelyn and Michael, I hate them. I know I probably use that word too much when speaking about them but I do. I should've listened..."

"Listened to who?"

"My grandmother and my aunts, Michael's mother and sisters. I came out to them when I was about twelve years old. I was very young at the time but I knew that I liked the same gender. They told me that Michael and Evelyn are homophobic and I didn't listen to them, didn't believe them. I just didn't think that two people who are supposed to love you would do such a thing."

"It's okay Toni, some people are just evil but they will soon realize their mistakes and come back to you..."

"I hope so. They weren't there when I needed them the most. I feel like they disowned me because they were such church-going people. Michael was a preacher and we would be at church everyday, Bible study, and Saturday school. Everything that had to deal with the church, we were there. They didn't want me to ruin their image, with the church, so they kicked me out. I kind of feel like they think that I disowned them by liking the same gender, I don't know."