It's been a week since I told everyone that I'm alive, I haven't reached out to any of them knowing that they all need some space but it's killing me. They lost a friend when I faked my death but I lost all of them and my family. They lost one friend but I lost several. They have every right to hate me and if they want to talk they will, for now I just have to give them space.
Me and Em have been going out more often, I think she needs it just as much as I do. Tonight we were going to Lux and although I was excited, it just brought up memories of Leah and the night we first met nearly 3 years ago. Even thinking about her made my heart break into a million tiny pieces.
"Ready to go?", Em asked taking me out of my thoughts, "yea let's go", I said smiling as we made our way into the taxi. We spent the ride just giggling and joking with each other and I was glad I had her. I know she's still hurt about everything but I would have definitely fallen apart by now if I didn't have her.
We pulled up to the club and made our way inside, we've been quite the regulars so we have a VIP booth under our names. More deja vu. The drinks were flowing as me and Em were talking about everything and anything. God I missed this.
"So how have you and Lia been?", I asked genuinely, they're perfect for each other and I know the 2 of them were a shoulder to cry on for Leah this past year and I'm thankful.
"Lia?", Em asked seeming confused and I just laughed, "yes Em, Lia? Your girlfriend?", I replied giggling, the alcohol clearly taken its affect as Em just rolled her eyes.
"No Y/N, Lia is here, so is she", Em mumbled the last part as I whipped my head around to see Lia, Katie, Beth, Viv, Alessia, Steph, and Leah. Leah. My breath hitched in my throat when I seen another girl with them who I didn't recognise but then it hit me. Vanessa.
"Is that her?", I asked for confirmation as Em just looked at me sympathetically and nodded. Lia caught eyes with Em and me as she informed the rest of them that we were here as I quickly turned around.
"Shit they're coming up here, they must have a booth", Em whisper shouted as I started to tense up. Of fucking course their table was pretty much opposite from ours.
"You can go say hi Em, they're your friends too", I said to Em, not wanting her relationships with them to be affected because of me.
She just rolled her eyes and replied, "shut up Y/N/N, I'm not gonna leave you sitting here by yourself".
"Well then now is your chance, I'm going to the bar, I need something stronger", I laughed out, though nothing about this was funny. I made my way to the bar and asked for 4 shots of tequila. This is gonna be a long night.
Emily's POV:
I watched Y/N walk to the bar as I sighed sadly, she was trying to put on a brave face but I could tell this was killing her. I get if they needed s couple days to get their heads around it but it's been a week and they've been radio silent.
I stormed over to their table as I caught eyes with Lia and I just shook my head, letting her know not to say anything.
"I have something to say to all of you and I want you to listen before you say anything", they all just looked at each other and then back at me, apart from Leah, she avoided my gaze at all costs. Seeing her with her arm around Vanessa and not Y/N, it didn't feel right but Y/N said she wanted her to be happy. Vanessa seems like a nice girl and it's shitty for her to be stuck in the middle.
"I know you're all mad at her okay, I get it. I was pissed too about being kept in the dark but she did it for all of us. Maybe you don't get it because none of you know what it's like to be a detective and that's fine. But I get it. And believe me when I tell you if there was any way to avoid what she did, she would have chose another way but she couldn't. The Stones were dangerous men, Y/N knew that James' threat was real and she would have never forgiven herself if she came back and something happened to one of you. I'm not asking you to forgive her, or forget what happened, all I'm asking is that you let her know that you understand why she did what she did", I breathed out as they all looked around at each and looked down, almost ashamed. But I couldn't read Leah's expression.
"Now if you excuse me, I'm going to get by best friend before she drinks the bar dry", I laughed as I left their table and didn't look back.
Leah's POV:
Seeing Y/N last week just brought all those raw emotions and feelings back. And tonight in the club, she looked amazing but still, that little sparkle in her eyes wasn't there.
After Emily's speech, we were all silent as we took in her words. I get what she was saying, I really do, but I'm just so mad at her and I'm with Vanessa now. I have to see this out, Y/N is at the back of my mind now. Right?
"Are we bad friends?", Beth sighed as they all just mumbled in agreement.
"We should talk to her soon, let her know we're here, as much as I'm angry right now, she's alive. She's actually alive, that's what matters", Katie said as she looked over at the bar where Y/N and Em were.
"We aren't bad friends, she made the decision to fake her death, that's on her", I mumbled out as I finished my drink. Everyone shared concerned glances, I knew they disagreed but I didn't care. I seen Em and Y/N return to their booths and is it bad that I want her to hurt just as much as I do right now?
I seen her look over to me as we made eye contact making me suck in a breath. I knew she was still looking and I reacted before I could even think, I pulled Vanessa into me and placed a soft kiss on her lips. I could feel the stares on me but I only cared about one, hers.
When I pulled away, I looked up to see Y/N leaving the table and making her way to the bathroom. Shit. Mission accomplished Leah. I sighed as I seen the disapproving looks from everyone at the table. When I looked at Vanessa, she also seemed disappointed, she knew about Y/N so she knows that's why I kissed her. I looked back over to their table to see Emily glaring at me with her arms folded and I just looked away. How did I become the bad guy here.
