Beginners Luck

Secretes

Drew

I knew Kae was upset over Kyle Jr a lot latey and hasnt wanted to talk much about it but thats normal around this time of year. She usually opens up when shes ready. I let Char and her talk for a few minutes before I decided to go out and make sure she was okay. Kae has had a lot of ups and downs lately and im not sure if its just all the stress with wedding planning or what it is. I got her a cup of sweet tea and headed out to the back porch. I slid open the door carefully trying not to be to loud and interrupt them.

"yeah but how do you tell the man that dreams of having a family to pass the ranch onto that youre not sure if you want a family anymore" I heard Kae say

I stood there for a minute processing what I just heard.. "you dont want a family anymore?" I questioned not sure what to say.

I sat her cup of tea down and walked off towards the house. How could she not tell me or talk to me about any of this. How could she be so sure I was the one she still wanted to be with and marry. The wedding is just a few short weeks away and now she has me second guessing everything, what else is she hiding from me and not telling me. My mind was racing with all sorts of questions.

"Drew!!" I heard her call out after me but I kept walking

I headed to my truck not wanting to be around any of them at the moment. As I turned down the driveway to head to the gate there she was coming after me calling my name. I couldnt talk to her right now, I could tell she was crying and upset. I turned the other way and drove out the gate not sure where I was going yet.

I drove down to our little town bar and sat in my truck for a minute before going in. Ive given up rodeo for her and for the sake of having a family one day. How could she not talk to me about how she feels.. Rodeo was my life and all I knew until she came along and she knows how much I loved it. I swore id never let my gaurd down but I did for her and I dont regret it one bit but since her ive done nothing but dream of starting a family with her and she knows that dream because at one time it was her dream too..

I opened my truck door and walked into the little honkytonk bar. The juke box was playing loud and a few people on the dance floor. Normally thats where we would be heading but not tonight. tonight I ordered a beer and went an sat at the end of the bar on a barstool. I know I shouldnt of left that way but those words just shocked me. Not only shocked me but hurt me. Im not sure what ive done for her to feel like she cant openly talk to me. My phone kept buzzing with calls and texts coming through. I sighed and pulled it out of my pocket, they were all from Kaelyn of course.

*Drew im sorry. I know I shouldve talked to you about this but I didnt know how to bring it up without breaking your heart*
*please come home*

I put my phone back in my pocket and ordered another beer. I know I should go home but im just not ready yet. The door opened and a group full of women walked in all dressed up and ready for trouble it looked like. I rolled my eyes and grabbed my beer.

Char

I felt absolutely horrible all evening how could I be so stupid and cause this whole thing to happen. I could tell how hurt Drew was by the tone of his voice when he walked off but he also came into our conversation at the total wrong time. Kae went off after him but it did no good he took off out of the driveway leaving her in the dust..

I walked after her after I saw his truck leave the driveway an she was sitting there on her knees crying.

"I dont know what ive done" she sobbed "I dont know if I truly even meant any of those words that was me just venting to you as a sister" she said holding her head in her hands.

"Kae im so sorry this is all my fault I shouldnt of said anything and just left the box alone" I leaned down beside her holding her

"you didnt know Char quit blaming yourself this was bound to crash and burn anyways" she sighed