Beginners Luck

Curve Ball

Kaelyn

"Drew I'm pregnant" .. I blurted out.

He turned around looking at me "you're what?" He questioned "how? Now? Before the wedding?" All the thoughts in his head spat out..

I had no words I just stood there looking at him not sure if he'd be happy or not. My emotions are so back and forth right now.. Tears filled my eyes and I couldn't hold them in anymore.
He came over and wiped the tears running down my face and just held me.

"Are you sure" he whispered softly

"I haven't went to the doctor yet but I've missed my period and had a positive test" I sobbed

"Shh" he said pulling me closer to him.

I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him crying into his chest until the smell of the smoke and alcohol mix from the bar hit me and I couldn't stand it any longer. I pushed away from him and ran inside to the bathroom. The feeling faded as I washed my face with cold water. He was in the doorway grinning.

"There's no way I'm to far along to already be feeling this way about smells and things" I sighed..

"Looks like we get to make a doctors appointment"

I sighed "Drew I'm sorry" I said looking at him "I haven't known for long just a few days and I've just been freaking out and I am happy.. You deserve a family but part of me also feels guilty for wanting this because I'm so scared.." I said trying not to cry

"Kaelyn I had no idea" he mumbled "just what you said hit me hard it broke my heart and I couldn't understand why you wouldn't talk to me about these things" he sighed.

"I couldn't talk to you about how I felt because I couldn't break your heart.."  "Kyle Jr would be six this year and it tears me up inside that he never got a chance.." I cried "I feel like I don't deserve the chance to be a mom and to have a family because it failed the first time around.." I sobbed.

"Kaelyn you did not fail don't you ever say that" he said reaching out for me. "You deserve this more than anyone else" he whispered "you're gonna be a great mom" he kissed my forehead

"But what if it happens again" I cried

"Babygirl take this one day at a time.." "if it happens again then we will cross that bridge when it gets there but what if it doesn't happen" he said hugging me. "God's in control darlin"

I sobbed into his chest again, he had taken his shirt off to alleviate some of the smell. I knew he was right we can only take this one day at a time and I need to quit worrying so much but all these hormones have me all messed up.

"how did you even figure out or think you were pregnant?" Drew asked half questioning it and half laughing

"I missed my period and I figured it would just be a few days late since im under a lot of stress with the wedding planning and the house but it never came and my emotions just kept getting the best of me, Ive been crying at the slightest things going wrong and just super emotional, I could tell something was off with my body so I decided to take a test the other day and it was positive.."

Drew couldn't help but giggle.. I pulled back out of his embrace looking up at him and he couldn't hold it in any longer he busted out laughing holding his head in his hands.

"this is our life" he said looking at me "one curve ball after another darlin it's been this way since day one and I wouldn't have it any other way" he signed "I can't wait to make you my wife in a few weeks and watch you blossom into a beautiful mother to our child, I love you Kaelyn"