Officially, one week since I broke up with Taehyung, and my heart was broken into a million pieces.
I am trying my very best to pick up the pieces to fix my heart, to fix myself.
My dear mind didn't let me. My mind was constantly thinking about him.
"Has he eaten? How is he doing? Is he crying a lot? I miss his voice." Thoughts like these were roaming around my head.
And in days where I'm really down, I visit my favourite man I the world. My father.
I bought some fresh flowers. Gladiolus flowers. Symbolizing strength and remembrance.
When I met his grave once more, I couldn't help but remember all the amazing and sweet memories I had with him.
"Appa, your y/nnie is here! How are you doing?" I greeted his grave as I placed the flowers nicely on top.
"I'm not doing well. On days like these, I want your embrace. Appa, I'm sorry..."
"Appa, I miss you so much. I'm so sorry that i dated the guy whose stepmother killed you. I'm a mess without you."
"I really wish you could come back and hug me. I really need it."
"What was I even thinking to date a married man? This isn't how you raised me. I'm sorry."
I hung my head low as I knelt down to apologise. "It may sound very selfish, but I really loved him, and I still do. But, in some way, I feel like I'm betraying our relationship."
"I should have done this sooner."
"Appa, answer me from the heart, hmm? Is it wrong to love him?"
[Y/N'S FATHER'S WORDS]
"My daughter, I know you can't hear what I say, but you're able to love whoever you want. You're human, too."
"Because of me, she used it to threaten you. Appa is very sorry. Your emotions have rights, too. In the end, you're still my only daughter, and I'm forever proud of what you are doing in your spectacular life."
"Believe me, I can see that. You have never disappointed me. I'm sure you can figure this out, my strong girl."
I sobbed harder.
"I miss you so much, appa... What do I do?" I sat down and looked at him. Somehow, i felt him looking at me, too.
"It's okay, I'm pretty sure you just said,'You can figure this out.' Don't worry, I will."
"I'll come back soon. Rest well, okay? I love you." I smiled and left after venting out my thoughts. He was my happy place.
Days passed, and I still went to work with a forceful smile. And when I came back, I played with Dal. The kitten he had gotten me.
"Dal, I know I may give you less attention, but I'm grateful for your warm cuddles. Thanks for staying with me." She meowed with her doe innocent eyes looking at me.
"Yes, normally now I'll be waiting for his calls... We have to get used to this, okay? You're a memory of him. So I love you."
Just then, I received a text.
It was officially the 26th text he had sent me today.
Mr Kim 💍: Y/n, call me please? Tell me the reason.
All his messages, I left him him on read, as ordered by his stepmother.
One reply to him, and I'm gone...
[TAEHYUNG'S POV]
I slammed my phone on the floor, causing it to crack. What was wrong with her? She read my text! Why isn't she replying?
She left me without reason!
I frustratedly threw my hair back, walking back and forth for the reason.
"Tae?" Sua walked into my office acting all sweet, "Get out."
"I heard a loud thud -"
"GET THE FUCK OUT! CANT YOU SEE IM BUSY?" I raised my voice. She quickly got out, and I massaged my temples.
"Min fucking y/n, do you know what you're doing to me? Read and reply to my damn messages, please!"
I gripped onto the papers on my desk, damaging the paper.
Then it finally hit me. She really left me, she didn't want me. I lost my one and only dopamine.
I let out my frustration tears, trying to solve the puzzle to why we suddenly broke up.
'Never give up,' I told myself. I tried to call her again, and it led to a voice-mail again.
"Babe, can we meet up? Please, I'm missing you like crazy. Whatever the reason, let me know. I can't live without you."
"Please."
