Everyday Life with a Murderer

Chapter 28: There's something I fucking hate about you!

Hideaki woke up. He raised his head and looked around, reminding himself that he was in the tent. The bright light piercing through the fabric showed that morning had arrived.

Further inside the tent, Seiji still slept, lost in his dreams. Hideaki decided not to wake him up and quietly opened the tent door, slipping outside.

He was surrounded by a forest that was slowly waking up from the screams and fear from last night... almost as if everything that had happened yesterday had been buried deep in the ground...

He found himself sitting on the same tree stump Seiji had occupied the previous night. Closing his eyes, he focused on the sounds of the awakening forest, trying to find solace in nature. Seiji's friends were still resting in their tent, seeking respite after the terrifying events.

The morning chirping of birds gently resounded in the treetops, and the wind gently moved the leaves on the trees. There was peace all around...

Hideaki sighed and then put his head in hands, cringing. Thoughts were swirling in his head...
'Should I run away from here...? This idiot Ken already knows everything about me from Seiji... Despite that he said to Seiji, that he won't tell about me, he can still hand me over to his friend from the police behind our backs... And if this would happen, I would have to hide again... I would have to not let them find me... And I would have to... l-leave S-Seiji...'  He gulped, feeling how unsettling this feeling was... Feeling of loosing again someone, who this time accepted him for who he is... 'I don't want him to... l-leave me... or me leaving him... so to have that certainty... I have to... kill the ones who are willing to tear me up away from him... I need to...
Kill Kiminawa Ken...'

Suddenly... a unusual feeling of guilt hit him... as if something made him doubt whether his plan could come true...

'But... Seiji won't like it... He would definitely be super pissed at me like yesterday or even worse if he would find out that I killed his friend... W-what if, because of that he w-will... s-stop being my f-friend..?? ' the feeling of fear of reaction of his - maybe one and only friend, now terrified him. He didn't want Seiji to throw him out after such action.. But then, in his mind still appeared doubts about possible precautions that Ken could take in order to protect himself...
'I have to... I need to stop him... No, Seiji will hate me if I- But he's going to ruin everything - Seiji... Seiji will leave me- he'll leave if I kill Ken! But Ken can turn me in to the police! This idiot definitely wants to do this after what Seiji told him about me! I have to kill him! But Seiji will be angry! But I have to protect myself! BUT SEIJI WILL BE ANGRY! I MUST KILL! BUT SEIJI! KILL! SEIJI! KILL! SEIJI!...'  his thoughts were jumping at each other, one by one.

"Aaargghh!!!" He moaned being all confused of what to do.
Subconsciously he felt that he had to kill the problem that had arisen, but on the other hand, Seiji's reaction and the fear that if he committed something like that it would cause him to say goodbye to his current life, stubbornly blocked him.

Overwhelmed by his own thoughts, he grabbed his head and screamed in frustration

"WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE SO PROBLEMATIC AND ANNOYING!?!"

Suddenly he heard someone sigh. Terrified that someone had been there all along, he turned towards the sound. He noticed a person who was breathing gloomy and tired, standing nearby him... and it was...

Kiminawa Ken.

He held a cigarette in his hand. Remnants of gray tobacco smoke flew from his mouth and floated across the sky, dissipating with the clean air of the forest.

Seeing Ken, Hideaki felt a shiver run through him due to the fact that someone was watching him all this time in his ignorance. But then, seeing what Seiji's friend was doing, made him sour and disgusted. He hated smokers.