pagājusi stunda.. pagājušas četras.
"(..) trauma is such a shock to your system that it stresses your nervous system beyond its ability to cope. And so we leave our body. We dissociate ourselves from our body. I wasn't present to those moments in my past and so of course I have no recollection of them. I left my body as a way to cope and survive." ( @nicolerosecoaching)
Antonija man nosauca Zigfrīdu par traumu, un es šo apzīmējumu akceptēju un pieņēmu. Šeit parādās vien' cit' dom' – par diskonektēšanos no realitātes. Oh, right, I wanted this to be an English one, alright.
I've percieved myself as someone, who doesn't really live in the present moment, but rather somewhere around it. Not really in touch with reality, not really on the ground. Someone flying, floating about. And someone deeply happy in life. Someone who doesn't cling on to bad moments, but lives in the wholesome life as a whole. And people have told me that I'm the happiest person they know. And I let grief get to me in the night, but even when it does, I know it's gonna be good in the end, that's just the way of life. Don't be so caught up in the present moment, if you can be happy and .. obnoxious? oblivious? And could it be that my lost touch with reality and the present has somethinf to do with trauma response? Or I'm just overthinking... And leaving sad memories
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vēlāka dienasgrāmata | Glamorous
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