Dazed Off

In first loves, there is sincerity

Everything i knew was a lie,
i know you are to blame.
I thought i could only find you in the deepest part of my wrist,
with soaked bed sheets, full of drowns.
Puffy eyes you keep describing as pretty.   
A cloudy mind filled with nothing but your poisonous smile.

I thought I could only embrace you in daydreams,
wet dreams soaked the bed sheets, i cried— wished i never woke up.
Seeing the galaxy at day– refusing to meet your eyes,
like venom, it's dangerous.
It puts my void inside a mint car– driving away through an endless road.

I thought impossible, you are.
Someone as shitty as me, and someone as daring as you.
met eyes, thinking, "so pretty"
My puffed hair, and your cloudlike sin,
filled mine with a curse and, yours with what you call "everything"

Like galaxy, forever we swore,
my void is yours— drive it away like how you drived me crazy.

I know you are to blame,
you made me lie
with your sincerity.

I never found you like how it goes in movies,
I guess you're too pretty for that.

I never found you in the midstream of constellations,
I guess you're too pretty to fit in

I never found you at the seashore, breathing waves storms your hair.
I guess you're too pretty— no words or scenes can ever compare.

I never found you
because i found myself.
your kisses striped me naked,
revealing it's lies.

I think I have longed to be known.