Dazed Off

#45 a bad dream

wake up ,

he will never come back
close up your heart
if that's what it takes for you to give up

maybe this time
it's actually okay to daydream-
even if it means distracting yourself

..

i just wanna forget you, aj
how do you make it so easy to act like you never knew me?
well, maybe that is true

hey
let me forget about you
let me stop being selfish
and just
let you go

stab the hands embracing-
it won't let you breathe

like a child, holding onto a teddy bear that is long rotten
as if holding it makes the monsters go away
it does
as if holding it makes the tears stop
it does
as if holding it shuts up the voices
it does

as if holding it makes this goddamn life any better
it does
as if holding it now makes it feel like the first time
....

aj, i just wanna be true to myself and scream i still love you

but I can't

i can't make your new girl feel like she isn't enough