Mom I just need a moment
To get my life back
Trust that I will help myself get myself back
from loosing my sense of self.
So I just need a moment
to stop thinking about cuts and veins
I'll try to stop getting scared of your voice, Mom.
Because the way i see it,
I'm more afraid of you than killing myself
I'm more afraid of you than god himself
or even the devil on flesh
because somehow, you're always both
I just need my mom
to give me more than a moment
to explain myself,
and understand me.
I just need my mom
to give me a hug.
Not any of the softest, silkiest blankets
can ever replicate the warmth
of a hug
of a mom.
So I need a mom
that won't mis-characterize my cry for help
as a grit of teeth of anger
for her.
I need a mom
that will give me a gentle, full pledged apology
instead of a forced sudden materialistic gift.
I need a mom
that won't read my poems
and call it blasphemy
call me a blasphemer
call it me-blaming-her
call it fucking emotional
this is an "i need my mom" moment
so this isn't about you, mom.
it never was.
YOU ARE READING
Dazed Off
PoetrySee what the young poet wrote in her old journals at only the age of twelve, and how her mental state progressively gets worse at age fifteen:) Collection of poems mostly about God, family, love, and hate to oneself. • most impressive ranking: #6 in...
