Unconditionally (BOOK 3)

Returning Patient

"Morning, angel." I kissed Felix's forehead the way I do every day.

"Morning." His voice always takes me by surprise when he wakes up because of how deep it is, and now that we pretty much only talk in English when we're together, I get to hear it with the Australian accent. How could I not want that every day? "What time is it?"

I reached over and grabbed my phone from the nightstand. "3pm." A message from three hours ago stood out to me. It was from Wooyoung.

Woo
I really didn't want to do this over text but I had to go to work. I'm relieved you and Felix are home. I'm sorry about yesterday. Specifically about San. He wants to talk to you too but he's at work now. But when he gets back, he's taking you back to the rehab. I wish it didn't have to be like this but I guess 90 days wasn't long enough like we thought. I love you to death, please don't look at this as us throwing you away and immediately resorting to rehab. But with my busy schedule and San getting a full time job now, we can't take care of you. I can't really trust Felix on this much either because I'm pretty convinced he knew and covered for you which I don't understand but San and I will have to talk to him about that too.

I didn't want you to be in there for my birthday. You were upset enough about missing Felix's. But I just don't know what else to do right now. We're all really frustrated for different reasons. I don't expect you to answer this text either since you've ignored the rest of my messages since you left. But please know I just want you to be safe and healthy, that's what matters to me. I wish I could understand. I've tried to figure out why you relapsed but I just can't figure it out. I thought everything was okay.

San will be home around 4 so I guess pack your things and say your goodbyes to Felix for now. I'll visit you when I can. Love you

Felix was reading the text the same time as me. We both felt defeated. It was like I didn't even get a chance to explain. But then again, at the end of the day, I still relapsed. No matter how I try to justify my actions, I still did something I wasn't supposed to.

"Sometimes I feel like they can't stand me." I admitted.

"That's not true."

"I didn't say it was, I just said it feels like it."

Felix groaned and rolled on top of me, pressing his forehead to mine. "Be nice." He gave me a quick kiss before digging his head into the crook of my neck.

"I don't wanna go." I wrapped my arms around him, wishing I could stay in this spot forever.

"I know." Felix caressed my cheek and kissed my neck. "We'll figure something out."

Five o'clock rolled around and I reluctantly met San downstairs. Felix followed close behind, not trusting him one bit. I told him it was okay, but he refused to listen. Like he said, he doesn't care who it is, no one is allowed to touch me like that.

"Alright, come on." San sighed, unwilling to look me in the eye. I looked to Felix, who also noticed, but we both shrugged.

"I'll meet you in the car." I said, throwing my bag at San's chest.

I turned around to Felix and pulled him in for a kiss. I can't believe I have to do this all over again. Every single moment that's passed has felt like a bad dream since I read Wooyoung's text.