Unconditionally (BOOK 3)

A New Feeling

The second we got to our hotel suite, we couldn't keep our hands off each other. I don't think I've ever been this happy in my entire life. There were times where I thought I was, but this is an indescribable feeling that feels brand new.

Felix lightly pushed me down on the bed and hovered over me, deeply kissing my neck. Soft moans were escaping my lips, desperate to feel more of him. He sat up and ripped his shirt off, revealing his toned body that I'm obsessed with. I did the same, wanting to feel closer.

"Wait." He popped his head up, changing his demeanor almost entirely.

"What, what's wrong?"

"I can't do this on a Finding Nemo bed, I'll never be able to watch the movie again."

"Good point." I nodded. "Shower?"

The both of us smiled and took the rest of our clothes off on our way to the bathroom.

Just like before, we couldn't keep our hands off each other. The hot water trailed down my back, only making the sensation of Felix's lips more intense. Then he pushed me against the shower wall and started to stroke my cock, kissing me roughly. My breathing became heavier as he picked up speed until eventually turning me around.

"Shit." He mumbled.

"What?"

"You're too tall for this."

I turned back around and immediately thought of an easy solution. But it was whether Felix was comfortable with it or not.

In the beginning of our relationship, I was always on top. It never crossed my mind that Felix would take control until he asked to do so that one day. We never looked back after that. Later in time, he confessed to me there was a second but also much darker reason as to why he wanted to be on top. There had been multiple times where we'd be having sex and he'd picture his father instead. It haunted him and he was too afraid to confess the truth. But I told him I'd do anything to make him feel more comfortable and secure.

"Would you want me to top instead?"

He paused to think about it for a moment, but eventually nodded. "Okay."

After what happened to me last year, I never wanted to have sex again. I was petrified. The memory I've tried so hard to bury would just appear in my head like I was reliving the past. But I knew I could trust Felix. He was the only person I let touch me that night which meant he would be the only one I'd trust with my body.

"Is this okay?" I stretched him out slowly and carefully, making sure he was comfortable.

"It's okay, it feels good."

This was the first time he had ever let me touch him like this. His vulnerability was always heightened when it came to this part which is why he needed to do it himself. I'm glad he trusts me though. He knows I'd never hurt him.

His breathing was unsteady but tame, feeling my fingers inside him. I kissed his shoulder repeatedly to put his mind at ease - to make sure he knew he was safe in my arms.

"I love you." I whispered in his ear. My arm was wrapped across his chest as he held on to keep his balance; which allowed me to quicken my speed inside him, resulting in soft moans leaving his lips. "You're so beautiful."

He wore a faint smile which quickly changed back to an expression of pure erotic bliss. His lips were slightly parted and his eyebrows were furrowed, seeming to only want more. Unexpectedly, I felt his small hand wrapped around my cock, pumping lazily yet it still felt amazing.

"Fuck me, baby." His deep, sultry voice only turned me on more.

I slowly pushed myself inside him little by little so the shock wasn't unbearable. Judging by the way he threw his head back on my shoulder and started to pant mildly, he felt just as good as I did. His tight hole clenched around my throbbing cock, immediately making my thrusts sloppy. But the pressure only made it feel ten times better.

"You feel so good." I groaned, listening to the sounds of his constant moaning.

"Harder." He whined.

I positioned my hands on his hips and slightly pushed him forward so I had more room. He cried out once I pulled him back by the waist the same moment I slammed my cock inside him. If I went any faster, I knew I was going to cum. But I wanted this moment to last.

"Shit." I looked down and began to watch himself slide in and out of him with ease. It was a reminder that he was mine and I was his.

"I'm gonna cum." He sounded frantic, on the verge of an orgasm. "Fuck." He whimpered, letting himself finish all over the shower wall.

Knowing how sensitive your body feels after you've came, I pulled out and quickly did the same near the drain. It's a pleasant agony when you're lying down on a bed and you're used to getting aggressively fucked. But it's another when you're in a hot shower on the verge of passing out from the heat and standing; I can't imagine it being a very fun feeling. I wouldn't want Felix to suffer in any type of way whether it was sexual fun or not.

Felix turned around and rested limp body against the wall with flushed cheeks, still trying to catch his breath as I was doing the same. From there, we showered normally, then got into bed as quickly as possible.

I couldn't help but stare and admire how beautiful he is. That's something that's never changed - his beauty. From the moment I saw him, I was speechless. I couldn't even focus on what I was doing because I was so blown away.

"I love you so much." I caressed his cheek, rubbing my thumb across his freckles. "I'm really happy." I felt a lump grow in my throat as tears threatened to spill from my eyes.

"I told you I'm never leaving again. I made a promise, remember?"

I nodded and pulled him close to my chest, squeezing his small body tight.

"You're all I've ever wanted."

After Felix and I broke up while I was in New York, I never tried to find someone else. Sexual partners was one thing, but never would I dare look for someone to be in a relationship with. I just knew it would be a waste of time because no one would compare. If you're not a fun-sized, Australian, freckled blonde angel with a voice that doesn't match his face, I'll pass.

Seeing Felix cry nowadays was a rarity. He's grown up and matured quite a bit since high school. So to have him crying in my arms was a shock to me.

"I'm so happy you're still here. I used to be so scared that I wouldn't get the chance to ask you to marry me one day and that I'd lose you forever. But you did it, you beat it. You're so strong and I'm so proud of you."

"I'd never leave you. Ever. You're the most important thing in my life. You matter more to me than any drug in the world."

"Stay this way. We've been so happy."

"I wouldn't go back to that, even if I had the chance. You're all I need."

"And I'm yours forever."