Mine 35
Kassi
"Kailangan ka namin dito kailan ka ba babalik?" Tanong ni Papa Tuan ng tumawag ako sa kanya pagbalik ko ng apartment ko.
"Papa I'm not yet ready" Napaupo ako
"Pupunta kami sa ospital ng Mama mo for some check-ups. Make sure you'll be back soon"
"Yes Papa marami akong aayusin dyan. I just want to be with Mark for now. You know how much I missed him. Nagtiis ako ng halos isang taon, papa." I sighed while thinking of the reason why I can't be with Mark
"Para rin naman sa inyo yun. We have to go na."
"Take care papa"
"Were you talking to Papa?" Halos maihagis ko ang telepono ng may magsalita sa likod ko. "Buti ka pa madalas tawagan ni Papa at pinapauwi. Ako halos ayaw niya pauwiin lalo na last year" malungkot na turan nito
"How's work? Ang aga mo naman ata" pag-iiba ko ng paksa. I don't want him to ask about my reason
"Okay lang. We have another schedule by 6 pm sa radio naman."
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Junior
"Akala ko hindi ka na dadating" bati ko sa taong kanina ko pa hinihintay
"It's hard to go out. Bakit ba pinapunta mo ako rito? It's not safe"
"Walang safe na lugar sa taong tulad ko" Ngumiti lang ito. Shit! Natutunaw talaga ako pag ngumingiti siya! "Kailan mo balak bumalik sa lungga mo?"
"Maybe next week? Why? Don't you miss me?" I missed you..a lot
"Bago ka pumunta ng Korea pinuntahan muna kita last month." I came to LA because of you...
"It's because you went there with your friends!" I came there for you
"I want you to take this to LA and give it to him. I want to see it when I visit you again" I handed her a box
"Junior..." Hindi ako halos makahinga ng yakapin mo ako. Shit why am I feeling this way? "Thank you so much, jun jun" I smiled when I heared you calling me with your personal pet name for me. I feel so special
"I have to go. May trabaho pa ako."
"Oh kailangan ko na din umalis and fix some stuff." Nauna kang umalis kaysa sakin.
It hurts to see you walking away from me. But this is how things are supposed to be. You can't be mine. I can't have you.. i can't love you. I guess I just have to keep this feelings for myself.
So this is how one-sided love works huh? Fucking hurts.
