My Devotion (Completed)

12. The Smile

"Drew." I start and he watches me with soft eyes.

"Yes?"

"You don't want to date me." I state in a whisper.

"Yes I do."

"Really you don't." I look down and away from him as I start to walk again.

Never did I honestly expect to be asked by him. I think he is definitely smoking hot, but he shouldn't have to be stuck with someone like me.

Bradus words come back once more. No matter how hard I try to stop them and not let it run me.

It is also the fact I am carrying a baby.

"Why not?"

"Because I am nothing to look at Drew and you are just wow to look at. You really don't want me as I am broken and trying to start over. So you deserve someone better."

"Why don't you let me be the judge of that."

I shake my head. "You really don't want me. Please trust me." My eyes burn as something in my chest aches at turning down his offer. My brain is thinking of the facts but, yet, my heart is wanting to say trust Drew.

"I bet I can prove you wrong." He smiles softly and when his hand comes up rather quickly, I can't help the reflex of my flinch.

My heart speeds up and I start to breath heavily. I try to slow it down as I look at the ground as I just embrassed myself even further.

"Hey." His voice is soft and compelling as I look back up to his face.

There is no anger, no signs of anything other than confusion. His eyes rake over my face and then his eyes harden.

I instantly take a step back as my mind goes on defense.

Stop! Breath! He is not Bradus. I can't react as such. Breath.

Drew puts his hands up to me in a soft motion. "I am sorry. I wasn't going to harm you, I was just going to touch your cheek lightly."

"I am so sorry." I stutter as I try to control my breathing but fail miserably.

"Why don't you breath with me?" He steps up and slowly takes my hand as he watches me closely.

I trust him as he said he isn't going to harm me as I didn't mean to react that way the first time. My mind let Bradus in to much when his words were circling my head I hadn't realized it put me back to how I would act around him. Drew isn't Bradus and has never given me a reason to be weary of him.

My hand is placed on his chest as I feel his heartbeat as his chest moves up and down in slow motions. "Follow my breathing."

I take a deep breath when he does and exhale slowly through my nose. His scent seems to coat my lungs with the smallest hint of cologne or maybe it is after shave. It clears my mind and my body slowly starts to calm back down.

"That's it." He smiles when I look up to his face since I have been staring at his hand over mine that he placed on his chest.

"I am sorry." I whisper and slowly remove my hand as he lets me go when feeling me pull back, he doesn't force me to stay.

"There is nothing to be sorry for. Are you okay?"

I nod. "Yes, thank you."

His frowns lightly as his eyebrows scrunch.

"I still don't think you will want me and now I just made a fool of myself. I am sorry Drew but thank you for helping my brother today." I try to smile as I walk away.

"Adina." I hear Drew sigh and look back to see him catch up to me. "Like I said I can say what I deserve and I want you. There is something about you that I have never felt before as you make me feel like a little kid again when others can look at me it creeps me out but not you." He talks quickly then stops as his eyes go wide. "I didn't mean to share all that but it is true."

"Drew." I sigh. I'm about to just tell him because I don't want to waste his time.

"Adina, I can promise I would not freak out there can't be anything bad about you. I don't know your past, although I could guess by chance a little of it."

I cut him off when I know he is going to keep on. "I'm pregnant Drew. I doubt you truly want me."

His eyes go wide once more and he looks down to my stomach then to face. "I love kids."

It is my turn for my eyes to go wide. "What? I tell you I am starting over, then that I am pregnant and you just say that? How could you still want me?"

"I wish I could show you how I see you just from the short interactions we have had together. Please go on a date with me, let me show you that I am a good guy. I can promise to never hurt you, or at least not meaning too."

I look over his face and tell that he is being serious and kind all at the same time. Words Jackson said to me comes back on what he spoke on just within the time since I left Bradus. No time line and to let myself be happy and not to push the right guy away. Maybe it could be good for me too and all part of starting over? What if Drew is the right guy? My heart wants to soar and I have never truly felt like this before as he makes me want to open up and trust so freely.

"Okay."

"Yes?" He smiles wide letting all his teeth show.

"Yes. I will go on a date with you." I nod and smile back as his is contagious.

"You will not regret it. I promise." He moves slower and this time his hand cups my cheek without me flinching, his breath fans my face gently as his lips peck a kiss to the side of my mouth.

When he pulls back I can't stop the smile on my face, as my cheeks burn fom the blood rushing through my body. Little wiggling feelings make my stomach float and twist with the happiness flowing through me at his reaction.

His eyes widen once more. "Let's go." He takes my hand once he moves his from my cheek.

We walk towards the food court. "I kept you busy and you need food. This is definitely not a time frame to go skipping meals."

I don't even have words to describe how he already makes me feel but I can say I really like it.