This Is Just Between Us

bad memories, plus an insane Germany

Russia pov
Tw:Mentions of murder, assault, suicide, voices in head, mention of miscarriage/abortion, substance abuse, self harm, mentions teenage pregnancy, blackmail, mentions of abuse and racism, and animal abuse
(art by my pumpkin crowsong on YouTube, Tumblr, and Wattpad {Rainbowstar772} )

How long has it been since I've been part of aftercare? With my past partners they just wanted me to (This word has been censored for the sake of both the author and beta reader's sanity) and then leave. I felt empty and unloved, then again, I was unloved...
America:"What's wrong?"
Russia:"Just trying to remember the last time I've been a part of aftercare, it's been so long..."
America:"Aftercare?"
Russia:"Just emotional and physical affection after sex, cuddles, light kisses, and over all being together in a comfy way. I can't remember the last time I've done this..."
America:"Well if we ever do this again we can have aftercare every time, sounds good?"
I smile and kiss his cheek, he gives me a light nose kiss in response.
I give a small laugh before hearing my phone go off, I check it.....
Russia:"It's the band, give me a second."
I get out of bed and walk into the bathroom locking the door which I hear a 'Please don't lock the door' as a response to it being locked. I unlocked and checked the chat.... Holy fuck.
#1 friend: Dude wtf did you do?!
Me: All I did was break up with her!
Aggressive Abby: The bitch is off telling people you've been sleeping with America, she's gone crazy!
Cam Sam: Babe that girl has always been Crazy.
Me: How'd she figure out I slept with him?!
Gentle Jill: YOU WHAT?!
Me: In my defense the first time we were both drunk and had a stressful day! I broke up with her once I realized what I did!
Shipping Sally: Sorry, FIRST TIME?!
Me: We were mid aftercare before y'all went nuts.
#1 friend: Russia you are so fucked, she's already telling people you've hit her and that you were controlling...
Me: Don't let that get to Katie, she'll lose her shit
Music store Singapore: Kinda too late, she's going off on Israel over Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, she downloaded reddit just to yell at her there, Snap chat, Tumblr, tik tok, discord, linkedin, ASKfm, BeReal, she made her own damn site to call her out, she also made a youtube channel to make a single call out video, WhatsApp, pinterest, AMINO, Likee, Bluesky, picsart, every email site she could get ahold of, clubhouse, clapper, Quora, YuBo, BAND, flickr, Tribel, Hive Social, she tried to bring back vine AND MySpace, people are calling Katie nuts.
Daring Derek: She's done gone on a rampage!
Horny Harold: You guys are not helping, Russia is gonna end up in some deep shit if Israel don't shut her damn mouth.
Cam Sam: At least she doesn't know about his murders.
Vandal Nathaniel: His what now-
Me: Annnnnnd I'm going to jail.
#1 friend: No one is going to jail!
Lyrical Daniel: That's debatable seeing how Sam said Murders and not murder. That means there's been multiple.
Me: It's only two! Well three if you count the time I drove someone to suicide....
Sound effect Lily: Bitch you what?!
Me: Here we go-
Aggressive Abby: Fuckers now is not the time, Russia killed people, big deal? Russia slept with America at least twice, kinda big deal? Can we get back on the main issue, Israel being a petty bitch?
Cam Sam: I'd say bring it up to America-
Me: NO! No no no no no no no, he already has enough on his plate and might have a chance of getting charged for assault because he punched her for talking shit on Alaska. Not to mention Mexico's court case is happening next week-
Pathetic Paula: Wait what?
#1 friend: COURT CASE?!
Me: Yeah, she killed her father for almost putting his hands on her and her siblings. We helped frame it as self defense-
Shipping Sally: You've got to be kidding me.
Lyrical Daniel: WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING?!
Me: A lot. A lot a lot.
Aggressive Abby: Can we get back to the fucking topic?
Cam Sam: Abby's right, Israel is doing her best to ruin your reputation and seeing how friendly- no, not friendly. You've been uhm, what's the word I'm looking for?
#1 friend: Romantic. The word you're looking for is romantic.
Me: Ok, so what I've been getting all loving with my crush, this is a good thing! But Israel trying to ruin my reputation is the least of my issues, I'm more worried about Mexico's situation.
Horny Harold: Well what are we meant to do about it? None of us are lawyers and we know basically nothing about it, the only person who might know about this is Katie.
Music store Singapore: What are the chances that she's using this as her practice case?
Me: Hold on, I don't have her number anymore but America does. I have a feeling the main issue in the case is the prosecutor, if Katie is using this as her practice case, I think we found our key for having her win.
Russia:"America!"
I leave the bathroom and look at America with a stern face.
Russia:"You have Katie's number right?"
America:"What are you going to do?"
Russia:"She needs a practice case and she might've picked Mexico's case, but if she hasn't I can convince her to take Mexico's case."
America:"Why would we need her to have that as her practice case?"
Russia:"So we can get more information on the prosecutor! Since this is technically a murder case they'd try to get the best prosecutor they can, we can't have that because we don't need Mexico in prison."
He thought for a second and dialed the number.
America:"What exactly do you plan to do?"
Russia:"Don't worry, just know, they won't be giving Mexico a guilty verdict..."
Soon I was handed the phone.
Russia:"Hey Katie! How've you been? How are the kids? That's nice to hear, anything going on with your love life or are you still single? Wait what?! You and Demi actually got together?! You're shitting me- I'm so happy for you! What do the kids think of them? They like them? That's fantastic! Me? Oh, as you know I broke up with Israel, but I also have Alaska back in my life! Yeah, her siblings are calling me Papa as I'm practically their 2nd dad- ME AND HIM ARE NOT TOGETHER! At least... not yet... but that doesn't matter! The main reason I had America called so I can ask if you're about to do a practice case? You are, but you don't know what case to choose? Well that's why I needed to know, you see I'm friends with Mexico now and she's in some pretty hot water for killing her father, OUT OF SELF DEFENSE! Yeah, sounds pretty crazy huh? Will you do it? THANK YOU! One last thing... since this is a murder case they'll pick the best prosecutor they can, I was hoping you could give me inside information on the prosecutor so I can see what the band and I can do about them so Mexico doesn't get a guilty verdict. Thanks Katie, I knew I could rely on you!"
America:"From what I heard, Katie said yes?"
Russia:"Yes she did! I really hope she can get information on the prosecutor...."
It was at the moment I pinch myself as the voices are acting up again.
America:"The voices?"
I nodded and started covering my ears
Russia: "They've been getting louder recently and the only thing getting them to shut up is you, getting so drunk I can't even form a single coherent thought, and Alaska. They want me to do vile things.... Awful... violent.... Things. I just want them to be quiet!"
America:" Have you tried focusing on one thing alone?"
Russia:" Can't"
America:"Why?"
Russia:" I can't focus on something for very long, my siblings assumed I had ADHD. 7 different tests from 7 doctors, all negative. I just happen to have the attention span of someone with ADHD."
America:" So what I'm hearing is that your brain is fairly messed up."
I nod, it is messed up- more than messed up, it's fucked up.