𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐐𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐧𝐬

Chapter 2

It's been a week since Harvy and I stopped searching for Gaia. Although I did my best to try and act normal, it didn't last too long. When the sun rises, I put up my bravest face and I help my people all over the kingdom. But when the sun leaves, I'm left to roam around in the dark, drowning in my pitiful thoughts. Harvy tried his best to comfort me and to distract me, but nothing was ever enough to calm my raging heart. He suggested to look for her again, but what was the point? Maybe Gaia has already chose to abandon me.

If she did.. then I say she's a coward. I would have much rather preferred to face being rejected than to be abandoned and ghosted like this. To be left in this unknown gray area of where our relationship stood.. to constantly overthink, to worry about everything, and to beat myself up for not being enough.. all of these were greater than any torture that I've inflicted on others.

Weiss and Sapphire don't know we've stopped and I have no plans on telling them. I feared that my sister will become very angry and declare Gaia to be a public enemy of our kingdom.. that can't happen as Gaia was a direct messenger of the Moon Goddess. Creating an enemy out of her, meant creating an enemy out of our Moon Goddess. Thus, I opted to leave her and the dumb redhead in the dark.

I was also planning to keep everyone in the dark with what I was about to do. Maybe it was the loneliness taking over, maybe it was my recklessness, or my need to rebel.. but I stood in front of a strip club, a human strip club as our kingdom did not have this sort of thing. It was midnight and the streets were empty, I should have been sleeping already. But instead, I casted a spell on me, to wake me up, and I went on my journey to the human city.

Luckily, I didn't have to do anything else with myself as witches were closely tied to the physical appearance of humans. Therefore, I could blend in perfectly. But I knew that once I step inside, I won't be thinking rationally anymore. To hell with the pain, to hell with the consequences, I just want to have fun like before.

I took a deep breath and slowly opened the door to only be greeted by.. nothing? Confused, I stepped inside and looked around. It was like I was in the middle of the ocean but the water wasn't as deep and it only reached my ankles. There weren't any dancing or naked women.. the familiar smell of rum and wine were absent, and the dirty sight of sweaty men drooling over women were missing. I was in the middle of a fake ocean with no islands or any signs of life in sight. But just as I was about to leave, the door behind me closed and disappeared.

"What the fuck?"

"Were you about to perform an act of infidelity?"

I turned around and gasped. She still looked the same, her long, curly, light blonde hair that would occasionally turn white swayed behind her, and her sharp silver eyes stared straight into my soul. She had a smile on her face which contrasted the frown on mine.

I couldn't speak, I just stared at her in disbelief. Seeing my current state, she chuckled, "Well? What do you have to say for yourself?"

I stayed quiet, with my eyes roaming her face, trying to see if there was an inch of the emotion I expected. But I couldn't read her, she was as alert as ever, she knew what I was trying to do. Instead, I sighed and looked away, "Let me out."

"You can scream at me."

This shouldn't be a surprise. She's the all knowing being, of course she knew how I felt. Yet.. even though she knew how lonely I was and how much I needed her, she never came. I wanted to scream at her, I wanted to hurt her like she hurt me, but doing so.. didn't feel right. If I screamed at her, nothing will happen because she already knew what I'd say. Hurting her wasn't even an option as she was significantly stronger than me.

Seeing her now.. with seemingly no guilt with what she put me through, and with no signs of any comfort for me, it broke my heart. "Let's just get this over with."