𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐐𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐧𝐬

Chapter 42

A week has passed by since I woke up.

I initially planned to disappear from the world the moment I started to remember, but I did not. How could I when my sister was watching me every single day? She never left my side, and she has even forced me to sleep beside her. She didn't care whether I wanted to or not, and she would always ignore me whenever I shook my head. However, I supposed her stubbornness did help.. the voice and the face I've grown to fear hasn't been showing up as frequently as before, perhaps it was because of Weiss.

Although I was sort of calmer than before, I still had nightmares of that day... It just kept repeating and repeating, to the point that I already knew what Madrona was about to say before she would even say it.

During the first night of this nightmare, I screamed and I went crazy. Nobody could touch me, not even my sister, not even my mates. I just kept bawling my eyes out alone. I even tried to hurt myself, but that's when everyone sprang into action, and I was trapped between my mates' arms. They didn't let me go and they didn't say anything, until I eventually fell asleep once more.

The second night was more or less the same. I cried, and my mates held me. They didn't say anything once again, and I wondered why, but I didn't exactly blame them either. They had every right to hate me, to stop speaking to me, especially since I kept pushing them away.

The third night wasn't any different. I cried, and I cried, and I cried. This was when my sister had enough, and she forced me to sleep with her instead, just to see if I would still have the same nightmare.

The fourth night came, and unsurprisingly, it did not stop. However... The nightmare was different. Instead of almost getting killed by Madrona, I would overpower her. I was the one to almost kill her, we switched places. Perhaps Weiss cast a spell on me, to alter my dreams, I knew she could do that, but again, I couldn't really say anything so I couldn't confront her. I just.. let it be.

I knew this was the reason she forced me to sleep with her instead of my mates, so she could continue to alter my dreams and prevent me from going through that same torture every night. I knew I wanted her to stop, I didn't care if the nightmares kept coming, I would choose them over magic being used on me, but the words never left my mouth, and I knew unless I explicitly tell her to stop, she won't. No wait, that's incorrect.. this was Weiss, she wouldn't stop doing it even if I begged her. If she felt that what she was doing was good for me, then she won't stop, not even if I told her to.

I actually hated what Weiss was doing to me, I didn't hate her, but I hated the magic she used on me. It left me feeling bitter, annoyed, angry, and sad. But again, I didn't say anything, so she continued. Though it did pain me in other ways as well.. why? Because I slept in my sister's room.. my mates weren't beside me.

I... I did not even know what was going on with them. During the whole week, I only interacted with them a few times... Weiss didn't really force me to spend some time away from them, but I... I never left Weiss' room.. and I never actually asked for them either. I was such a hypocrite to say that I missed them, and yet, I did nothing to be with them.

They would come for me, of course they did, but whenever they were here, I was frozen. My eyes would stare blankly at the wall, and my body would tense every time they made contact. I think they've started to grow tired of me... I didn't blame them, I was tired of me too. They truly deserved better... Perhaps this was Madrona's plan all along... She didn't want to kill me, so she broke me instead...

It didn't help that I still couldn't talk, and I couldn't tell them what I was feeling... Then again, what was I feeling? I didn't even know anymore.

"Willow?" I looked at the door and saw Weiss entering with someone else following after her.