𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐐𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐧𝐬

Chapter 69

"So? Why did Weiss leave so suddenly?"

Gaia didn't answer me as she closed the door behind her, instead, she walked past me and sat on my bed, burying her head in her hands. Amused, I watched with a small smirk as Mallory sat beside her, giving our tallest mate a side hug and leaning her chin on our demigoddess' shoulder. "What happened, Gaia?"

Surprisingly, instead of directly answering Mallory, Gaia looked up at me with an unrecognisable expression and asked, "How about you, Willow? Are you happy? Are you satisfied?" I'll admit her rather stern tone caught me off guard, it was as if she was angry at me.. for something I obviously didn't do. My, Gaia must have woken up on the wrong side of the bed! She wouldn't use that tone with me otherwise.

Raising my brow, I chuckled before flipping my hair over my shoulder and finally answering in a playful tone, "Mhm... How am I? Why, I'm doing mighty well, my love! Am I happy? Now, that's a hard one! I don't think I understand what happiness is. Am I satisfied? Mhm, not quite, I still haven't got that witch's head on my hands, but I'll get there soon. Did I answer all your questions, my mate?"

"Little one... Please just come back to us?" Mallory then pleaded, her emeralds shining desperately as she looked at me in the eyes.

Confused, I tilted my head and frowned, "I don't think I understand, Mal... I never left."

I never left, I never did. I don't understand why they're so concerned, why they're so stressed.. so frustrated.. so hopeless.. when I'm still here... But I'm just stronger! So much stronger!

No more pathetic and weak Willow, throw that bitch into the trash because I already felt so much stronger, more powerful, and I've never felt so fucking amazing until now! No more self loathing, no more guilt tripping, no more of that stupid nonsense! That idiotic fear of waking up to seeing an innocent life get killed? Who cares? They were not even my responsibility! I couldn't understand why I even let myself feel so much guilt, none of it was my fault anyways. Monica's death? Completely her imbecile of a son's fault! If that loser never made contact with Madrona, he wouldn't have put his and his mother's life in danger, then everything would've been okay! Although... I may have to thank him.. for in a way, he led me to Nonna's room, he led me to open that book and read that page. Without his foolishness, I may have never gotten this strong... Thus, I suppose I'll thank him once, then I'll never speak of him again. No idiot like him deserves my time and attention.

It's quite.. liberating though. It hasn't been a full day since I've used dark magic and yet... I already felt so incredibly powerful.. as if my magic was just waiting for this. It's such a shame my ancestors wanted to hide this magic forever.. the power it holds can surely turn even the weakest witch into one of the strongest! But then again... I do love being the only one to wield such strength... All I have to do was kill that bitch Madrona, and no one shall bear the title of the most powerful witch but me! Not a bad plan...

Fuck! What are you thinking, Willow?!

What happened to doing this for everyone?! To save innocent lives? What happened to killing the witch for the sake of the people, the kingdom, the queen, and.. yourself?

I-I... I don't... I don't understand? What the fuck was I even thinking? I don't quite remember...

Whatever, I'm still the same. I may have gotten stronger but inside, I never changed! Besides, it's impossible for me to change so soon! It hasn't been a full day yet! Not even close to twenty four hours! I've not changed! I'm still Willow so shut the fuck up! None of this was about Harvy, Monica, Weiss, or the fucking kingdom. Everything was about me! Not them! So stop spouting nonsense!

I could not even understand why I bothered arguing with myself... Like fuck.. was I actually going crazy? Because of what I did? I... No. Fuck, I may be stronger, but I'm the same. I'm still me.