𝐌𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐐𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐧𝐬

Chapter 19

I've never felt so conflicted in my whole life. There were two sides of me and they were in opposition of the other. One told me I should forgive both of them already, seeing as Gaia has a responsibility she can never turn her back to, and Mallory, quite literally, was just trying to live, therefore I shouldn't harbor such anger for them anymore. But the other side of me was stubborn, Gaia still abandoned me for months without ever updating me, and Mallory has mistreated me the moment our eyes met, therefore the two were deemed not worthy of my forgiveness yet.

The other side wanted to be held by them which was weird because I should be the one holding them. Meanwhile, the side in opposition just wanted to throw these two off the cliff. I can't seem to make up my mind. I didn't know what I wanted from them. I wanted to be held but I wanted an apology. I wanted them to cry but I wanted them to kiss me. I wanted to abandon them just like Gaia did to me. I wanted to mistreat them just like Mallory did to me. But I couldn't, I can't even try to because I already know I can't do it, I can't treat them as badly as they treated me.

The only thing I can do for myself was to.. promise that I'd leave as soon as they start mistreating me again. Of course I won't tell them this because if I did, knowing Gaia, they might trap me. Or they might act completely lovey-dovey just to have me fall and then they'll be back to their mistreating selves.

The only way for me to know if they were actually changing was if I forget about this promise of mine. If I can finally be with them, without the fear of being yelled at or of being abandoned. Looking at the two of them whilst we entered Vaye's castle, I genuinely hoped they'd make me forget about this promise.

"I still don't see why I should meet the queen of vampires." Mallory stated as she nervously ran a hand through her hair.

Gaia tried calming her down, "Relax, Vaye is a good- I mean.. she's a reasonable person, she'll understand." Seeing as Vaye was into torture and murder as much as my sister was, I can see why Gaia chose a different word to describe her.

"I just.. I don't do well with meeting others, especially royalty." Mallory admitted, her restless eyes roaming around the hallways.

Ever since Mallory opened up to us, she hasn't been stopping. She was much more open with her feelings and emotions now and Gaia and I were even slowly learning how to read her. It honestly felt amazing.. like the three of us were finally getting along. But I was still alert around the two of them, I just can't help it. Unless I feel there's been a significant change, maybe I'll let my guard down, but not now.

"It'll be alright, Mallory. Vaye does not care to make an enemy out of anyone, unless they've harmed her people, her kingdom, her friends, and most especially, her mate. As long as you do not harm Amethyst, or even look at her negatively, Vaye will not touch you."

I thought it was good advice because Vaye honestly didn't really care much about those around her, her eyes were always trained on her kingdom and Amethyst.

As soon as we reached Vaye's office, Gaia knocked first before entering, with Mallory and I following after her. Once I was inside the office, I felt arms wrapping around my waist and pulling my back closer to their front. I looked behind me and chuckled when I saw Amethyst's usual grinning face. Ah, to be a vampire with endless amounts of energy.

"Willow! I missed you!" She whined, hugging me closer and burying her head in the crook of my neck.

I was about to tease her when I felt eyes on us. I looked at my right and saw Mallory's sharp gaze trained on Amethyst and I. I furrowed my brows at her and shook my head. What the hell was she doing, looking at us like that? And I literally just told her not to look at Amethyst in a bad way!