Eternity

Fifteen

"Microsurgery is about precision" Derek is in the front of the skills lab, all of us residents are here because of this nasty spinal tumor that the lab tech guy Isaac has. If your wondering about Bella? John brought her to where Maze is torturing the humans, she agreed not to say anything since she didn't want to end up like those humans. He then shot Dante's cock when Dante boasted about how he fucked me to him, that he'll do the exact same things once he's out "the microscope changes your perspective"

We are all here since he is teaching but also needs someone with natural hands to help him "the hand eye coordination required can be learned, but right now I need naturals. Each one of you will get a chance to guide this pen" he shows us the red pen, as he's by the microscope "through the hole in the cup" on the screen, we watch as there's a dollar bill "the person who makes a mark closest to the president's nose and doesn't hit the side of the cup gets to scrub in" he pulls the dollar bill out sowing the red dot "Who wants to do it first?" Everyone raises their hands, I don't like neurosurgery. Just don't. But this is cool so I'm participating. When one of the interns from last year, Maslow I think his last name is? He goes up "take your time"

We watch as surgeon after surgeon goes to hit the president's nose "How do you know" I ask Cristina who is all cocky right now "that you'll hit the mark?"

"Because" she brags "I'm a god"

Shaking my head at her arrogance, when Jackson goes next he manages to hit near the nose. Everyone is impressed by Jackson, next is Cristina who doesn't hit the mark "RJ?" Derek motions, I go to the microscope with a dollar bill.

Taking the red pen, I guide it down to the nose. When I show it, everyone is very impressed since I hit the nose "Morningstar and Avery" Derek tells me "will be scrubbing in with me"

After leaving, I'm with Mark as we think Derek is doing this surgery to piss off the Chief "I'm doing a surgery" Derek tells me "that I fully believe in"

"You're doing this to piss off the Chief" I say, I'm going down to hell and cause some of the souls down there to have tumors like Isaac's. Practice on them.

"See" Mark looks at me "I'm not the only one who thinks this"

"Since when" Derek demands "did you and Richard become BFF's?"

"He's not my BFF" Mark argues "he's the chief"

"For now" Derek mutters

"What are you talking about?" I ask

Arizona and Callie comes over "Have you gone rogue?" Callie asks excited

"I'm doing a surgery I believe in" Derek corrects

"Against the chief's orders" Arizona reminds him "he'll freak when he finds out"

"There is a computer system" Derek assured us "saying I'm doing craniotomies all day"

"What if you don't cut?" They look at me "what if you're looking at the tumor and don't cut?"

"I'll cut" he assured me

"And if you don't?" I ask walking away "your many things Derek, but a tumor like this? You've never done one before, your scared"

***

I'm staring down at the tumor, Lexie is with us making sure Derek does as she says since he needs someone to help him. "Wow" I hear someone say, people are in the OR gallery and apparently the mike is on "that's...wow"

"The vessels" Derek lets out a long sigh "are more intricate than the MRI showed. There's no way I can get the tumor out" moving the flesh aside to check all of the tumor "without rupturing one and killing the cord"

"So what do you do?" I ask

"If I start with T-2" Derek mutters "I could avoid hitting the feeding vessels" he's trying to figure out what to do. Like I said, with a tumor like this you just take a wild chance.

"He's not talking to us is he?" Jackson asks

Shaking our heads no "No" Lexie is wearing a diaper right now since a surgery like this can last for hours.

"Jackson take my spot" ordering Jackson after eight hours, moving around to where Derek is. I've been practicing with tumors like this and I've been somewhat successful in the end, my problem was treating like this as a plan "Either you cut" I tell Derek who is muttering "or I take over"

"Dr. Shepherd" Lexie tells him "it's been over eight hours, you need to take a break"

"Dr Shepherd" Bailey speaks

"What?!" He demands looking at Bailey

"I'm sure" she says "this is an authorized surgery, but I thought you might like the know that the chief is scheduled to do a procedure in the OR across in three shortly. So if your going to cut"

"He's not going to cut" I take the instruments from him quickly hip checking Derek aside and cutting "I am"

"Are you crazy?!" Derek demands "get out of my OR!"

"You're not doing shit!" Yelling at him "I told you that you wouldn't cut, we've been here eight hours and you're freaking out! Now leave the OR!"

"No!" Derek yells "you have no experience with surgeries like this!"

"You were doing this" continuing to cut the tumor "to piss off the Chief! Do you think I want to do this? No, right now I want to be someplace else because my breasts feel like exploding! They are filled with breast milk! Now you can either leave and complain out there or"

"No" Derek argues "I'm going to instruct you which part to cut"

"Yeah" scoffing at that "you do that"

I ignore Derek as I'm cutting cords that he says I'm not allowed to cut "Dr. Shepherd" we hear the chief "Dr. Morningstar, am I to understand that you've been working on a spinal cord tumor this entire time? Canceled all your craniotomies? Am I seeing a third year resident working on a spinal cord tumor be herself?"

"Blame that one" jerking my chin towards Derek as we hear beeping as I'm with the last cord, I cut it and the beeping goes away and steadies itself out.

When I'm done, I close him up and everyone stares at me as I leave the room. Scrubbing my hands as Derek and Webber come in here to yell at me, I scream "You were doing nothing!" Looking at Derek "you only wanted to do that surgery to piss Webber off! So if you want to yell at someone yell at each other" looking at Webber "I'll pay for the surgery"

"What?" He asks

"The cost, send me the bill" waving my hand "I got it covered just like I got it covered with the patient" shaking my head as I leave the scrub room looking at them "you two are acting like children when your supposed to be acting like adults"