will we talk? {sam fender}

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"ya'alreet" sam asks walking in to my new flat, i say new. i've been in here for 2 weeks now and it's starting to feel like home.

i've already set the smoke alarm off 3 times and smashed a lamp but apart from that it's going well.

i've also been in the studio here in newcastle a lot writing my new album. i've only had to go back to london once and that was for a meeting about my album.

they have basically told me to do as much as i can by myself and they will give me all the help i need when i need it.

"yeah, you?" i ask him strolling into the kitchen and getting him a beer out of the fridge. i have a whole row of them just for the boys as they are constantly asking for one when they come round.

"yeah i'm alreet, did you see the first royalty off will we talk?" he asks me excitedly. i did, it's the largest amount of money ever paid into my bank account at one time.

"ohhh yes, we're rich"

"oh aye. i can't wait to buy a Lamborghini" he jokes, i laugh at him and roll my eyes. i get myself a can of gin and tonic from the fridge.

"so i've actually got some music to show you" i tell him excitedly as we enter the living room, my whole idea of a music room in the second bedroom has been completely abandoned as my two guitars always end up in the living room every time sam comes over.

"really? me too actually" he says shyly.

"really?! ah yay this is so exciting" i say, he smiles nervously. i don't know why he is excited to show me music when we literally have a song together.

"yer go first" he says

"well i have 4 songs completely ready and produced and then 2 rough songs that still need some editing" i explain to him scanning my phone for my songs in my files.

i click on the first song: break my heart.

the beat starts to play and sam smiles at me as doesn't expect it.

"i've always been the first to say goodbye
had to love and lose 100 million times
had to get it wrong to know what i like"

when you actually look into the lyrics it's a deep and meaningful song disguised as an upbeat pop song. but i know sam will recognise the true meaning immediately.

"if i would have known baby
i would have stayed at home
coz i was going better alone
but when you said hello
i knew that was the end of it all"

the song starts to finish and sam gives me a big cheesy grin.

"aw look at yer, cute little pop star" he smiles making me laugh, how cringey. "but in the lyrics" he starts. i know exactly what he is going to say.

"yeah, it's about harry. a lot of the songs are" i tell him, he nods.

"right well this song is called god is a woman"

i play sam 3 of the 4 songs fully produced which makes him the proudest person ever, he can't stop smiling at them.

"lac this album is going to be absolutely class" he smiles "but yer said 4 songs an' that was only 3"

"oh well you know, your probably bored to death, you don't need to hear anymore. let's listen to yours!"

in reality i haven't showed him the final song because of what it is about. it's about him.

"no lac i want to hear the song, come on" he says, i sigh.

"maybe later, now play yours" i say, he rubs his hands nervously on his jeans, his leg is bouncing.

"um before we start to listen to it lac, just know i don't have to put it on the album if you don't like it. it's completely up to you"

"um...ok"

"i'll be down here waiting
i take you to see your man
when you are done we'll go driving
and catch the coast in the evening light

these things were taking make us run our mouths but we never say anything

and i love it when you call me lover
ooo lover
and i love it when you call me lover
ooo lover
and i love it when you call me lover
ooo lover
ooo lover
ooo lover"

my heart is beating out of my chest. he's wrote a song about me? i feel sick. my stomach is doing summersaults. i'm not mentally prepared to hear the second verse.

"i can tell when the lies are changing
your spreading it all too thin
she gives me those eyes
when her man's in plain sight
or am i just mistaken?

these things we're taking make us run our mouths but we never say anything

and i love it when you call me lover
ooo lover
and i love it when you call me lover
ooo lover
and i love it when you call me lover
ooo lover
ooo lover
ooo lover"

that's my nickname for him. i call him lover. i'm in shock he's made a song about me. i'm in shock that he maybe feels the way i feel about him.

does he feel how i feel for him?

"we will break under the circumstances of the heat of it all, can you take all the pressure that is left behind

and i love it when you call me lover
ooo lover
and i love it when you call me lover
ooo lover
and i love it when you call me lover
ooo lover
ooo lover
ooo lover"

the silence once the song finishes fill the air, my eyes are stuck staring at the wall, my hands are sweating.

"lacy?" sam whispers making me tear my eyes away from the wall "i'm sorry- i've probably just dawned it all on you suddenly. forget it i'll delete the song don't worry"

i stop him before he can say anything else

"i love the song. lover"