will we talk? {sam fender}

60

"fuck off lewis!" i shout as he buys yet another property in monopoly

"this is so unfair" niall groans wiping his hands over his face

"oh niall mate go home if this is unfair, your house has been ready for weeks" lewis laughs at him with a push

"ugh but it's so much effort to move all my stuff all the way back down to london" niall says, my phone buzzes from beside me

it's my mum, we haven't spoken much. my london show was the last time i actually said anything to her

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mum hey lacy, when do you think you'll next be in london?

lacy oh uhh i'm not sure as i'm just chilling atm, niall is moving to london soon so maybe i'll come with him while he's moving all of his stuff

mum ok well if you do can you let us know the date, there's something me and your dad need to talk to you about x

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"uh niall" i say putting my phone down, niall
looks up at me "i'll help you move, i need to go to london anyway"

"oh god lacy if it's to see your record label about a new album tell them no, you need a rest" lewis says

i laugh at him "no i just want to see my parents that's all"

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it's september

the air is chilly, i still don't know what outfits to wear as i still have all of my summer clothes out as i feel disgusting in hoodies

my clothes just hang off my body, nothing fits anymore, i've been on this diet for haley but it's getting too much, i feel so faint sometimes.

sometimes i have to eat so i don't pass out but it makes me feel so guilty after, and sometimes i throw it up.

just so she can't say i'm putting on weight.

i pull up to my parents house and let a breath out, i'm wearing a loose t shirt with jeans.

i get out the car and knock the door which swings open to my dad, he looks different. not that i can quite put my finger on it.

my heart drops when he doesn't smile at me and pull me into a hug like usual, something is wrong.

"what's wrong" i worry looking behind him for any sign of anything. he moves aside for me to come in without a word.

"me and your mum want to talk to you about something" he mutters his eyes glistening with tears. i feel sick

we walk into the living room where my mum is sat on the sofa with a pillow over her lap, she smiles at me as i walk in.

she looks different too, ill in a way. her lips and skin is pale and there are deep wrinkles, her hair is unbrushed and she has no makeup on.

"you guys are scaring me" i half chuckle sitting on the sofa.

"oh darling" my mum bursts into tears, both me and my dad rush to her comforting her, i don't know why she is crying.

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i drive home with a lump in my throat, not a single tear has fallen from my eye. i feel a bit numb to be honest.

i think i'm in shock.

she would be the last person you would expect this to happen to. not her. please god not her.

her words play over and over in my head, i can't go home. lewis is not exactly the most comforting person.

i turn the radio down and stare at the motorway as there are signs pointing to different places.

glasgow
manchester
newcastle
newcastle

hes the only person i can think of right now, the only person i want.

i need him.

"hey siri. call sam" i say to my phone that is connected to my cars bluetooth, i unblocked his number after he came to the newcastle show, having him blocked is just pathetic.

my heart is racing as the phone rings and doesn't stop.

the beeps just go on and on until it goes to voicemail. shit. there is no one else i can go to right now, literally no one.

i try again, it's the same.
beep
beep
beep
beep

"fuck sam" i mutter my voice shaking, i've had all this time to cry and now when sam doesn't answer is the moment the tears come.

i try one last time and start to lose hope as the beeps carry on.
until he answers.

"lac?"

i sob at the sound of his voice, there are cars speeding past me in a flash.

"god are you ok?" he asks me, i reply with another loud whimpering sob, god i sound like a baby.

"sam" i cry

"fuck what's happened? where are you?" he asks me, i look at the map on my car screen and then the signs all around me

"i need you" i cry "where are you?"

"at the low lights" he tells me, i let out a sigh of relief

"i'm driving to you right now, fuck i'm sorry sam" i cry "i had no one else to call, i couldn't think of anyone i just-"

"what has happened?" i can hear the concern in his voice

"god i don't even think i can say it" i cry "my mum" i let out another sob "she has fucking cancer!"