will we talk? {sam fender}

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"i'm not watching fucking twilight, edward cullen can suck my dick" tom groans as ruby takes the controller off him

"edward cullen gives me fanny flutters" daisy says dead seriously making us all burst out laughing

"um forget edward what about daddy cullen? i love me some carlisle" i add making us laugh even more, we're all in tears laughing.

"what the fuck" joe rubs his hands over his face at us clearly disgusted.

"let's watch it, i need to see this carlisle lad" sam says with a smirk at me, i laugh at him and grab the remote from ruby to put it on.

the doorbell goes at the same time, the pizza is here.

"i've never given much thought to how i would die...but dying in the place of someone i love, seemed like the best way to go" i quote with a smile

i haven't been this happy in a while.

i can feel sam watching me, i turn my head to look at him and there is a big grin on his face. butterflies soar through my stomach

"ooo that smells lush" sophie says at joe walks in with the dominoes boxes, my stomach flips at the thought of food.

we all start to get into the film and i can almost quote the entire thing, twilight has always been one of my favourite films.

"lac are you not going to have some pizza?" sam asks me holding out a slice for me, it smells so good.

haley will never know if i have one slice, i sigh and take the slice from sam.

i eat the slice in record time, im so hungry. but the guilt instantly builds into me, i've done so well lately on my diet.

"bella is a cunt!" daisy shouts at the TV as bella shouts at her dad, ruby agrees with her and chucks a potato wedge at the TV

"oi i spent my money on that tellie" sam says nudging ruby with his foot, there's a smear of grease on the screen now.

i watch them all eating the pizza and laughing and the guilt builds into me even more, i shouldn't be eating this much.

"i'm going to the toilet" i whisper getting up, i head towards the stairs to go in the toilet furthest away.

i can feel myself shaking as i turn on the tap to cover any sounds i might make. it's like routine as i stick my fingers down my throat making myself gag.

i need to do this quick, i get all of my food out and sniff as i stand up and wash my hands. as i do there is a knock at the door.

shit.

i wipe my face quickly before opening the door with a smile. dean is stood there with a confused look on his face.

"you alreet?" he questions me, i try my best to hide any sign of emotion, i nod making sure my smile doesn't drop.

"i thought i heard you throwing up" he says, i can feel the tears coming to my eyes, i cry when i panic. shit.

"i'm fine" i manage to peep out before trying to walk past him but he moves in front of me stopping me

"lacy" he says like a warning "i'm not thick, i know you were being sick. are you ill? is it anxiety" he takes a moment "fuck your not pregnant are you?"

"no god no, i'm fine" i say before acknowledging what he said, i could use this as an excuse "i just felt a bit ill that's all, probably just got a stomach bug"

"oh" he says furrowing his eyebrows "do you want to go home?"

"i'll see how i feel" i smile before actually moving away from him now, i walk off and i can feel his eyes staring into the back of me

i run down the stairs and back into the living room returning to my space on the sofa next to sam

"you ok?" he asks me with concern

i force a smile and nod "i'm fine, just feel a bit ill" i feel bad for lying to him, but if he ever found out he would go as far as suing my management and haley just so i'm ok.

"do you want to go to bed? or i can drive you back home? i'll even stay with you in London if you'd like-"

i cut him off "sam i'm fine, don't worry"

"i'm just worried about you"