will we talk? {sam fender}

24

lacy

shit.

i watch as sam first lands directly on harry's face, the whole pub goes silent, the only noise being my shriek and the boys rushing to get over to sam and harry.

i follow with them.

"sam mate that's enough!" dean says stopping sam from throwing another punch. harry is bent over holding onto his bleeding nose.

i feel the tears coming to my eyes as i look between the boys unsure on who to interact with.

"lac" sam whispers, the commotion around sam doesn't stop him from only focusing on me, sending emotions through my body that i don't want to feel.

no words come out of my throat as harry looks at me his nose bleeding.

"lacy" harry says sternly. whatever harry did or said must have been bad for sam to punch him. i always thought sam was being dramatic when he said he wanted to kill harry.

"i'm sorry lac. it just- he's just- he's a dick!" sam stutters walking towards me, dean, joe, tom, johnny and drew are all stood around us watching sams every move in case he decided to hit harry again.

"how are you calling me a dick when you just fucking punched me!" harry exclaims throwing his hands up but immediately wincing in pain.

"i decked ya for a good fucking reason, ever call her a slut again and i'll do much worse then a broken nose you cunt!" sam shouts in harry's face.

"what" i whisper in disbelief, tom steps closer to me showing comfort. i can't believe what i'm hearing.

"lacy i didn't mean it like that. it wasn't an insult i was just talking about our nights together"

"what" i repeat even more shocked harry is just sharing that like it's no big deal.

"if you don't fucking break up with him now lac there is seriously something wrong with you" sam says to me "he has put you through so much!"

"and how would you know?!" harry shouts back

"from when i picked her up in pieces at your door after you left bruises all over her arm you prick!" sam shouts back.

there are a few audible gasps, i look around with the tears falling down my cheeks.

"he hurt you?!" tom suddenly yells in shock "sam fucking deck him again! fuck it i'll deck him myself!"

tom leans back with his arm ready to punch.

"boys!" the bar made shouts from the bar, she had been watching this all "go home, and you" she points at me "ya never go near that prick again. thinking he can go around hurting women"

"lacy come on let's go home" dean says pulling me away from the situation, i can see from the corner of my eye joe holding sam back from harry who now looks like he regrets ever being born.

"no" i sniff "no i- i need-"

"lacy sam will be back soon, we just need to get you home first" dean says pulling me to the entrance of the pub.

i cry into the cold air clutching to myself, dean waits patiently by me letting me get out of all my cries.

"why didn't ya say anything" dean asks me

"i thought i really liked him" i sniff "i started to think maybe that's just what relationships are, my ex boyfriend was also like that. so i started to think maybe it's normal. i just want to be loved dean"

"you are loved! so loved. we all love ya pet"

"that's not what i mean and you know it" i cry.

"lacy there is someone out there that is going to love you like that, it just may not be today they come strolling along"

the door behind us swings open and sam, drew, tom and joe all stroll out. sams eyes land on me immediately.

his arms strangle me in a hug, he is silent.

"i'm sorry i couldn't protect ya" sam says into my hair, i start to cry all over again, weeping into his shoulder.

he lets go of me and looks at dean who looks at the rest of the boys who take it as a sign to start walking home leaving me and sam alone.

"i'm sorry i punched him. i regretted it as soon as i saw your shocked face" sam says, we start to walk towards the way to his house. we are walking slowly so we have enough time to get all of these words out.

"did he really call me a slut?" i ask sam my voice breaking at the thought. sam sighs giving me the answer i need "i'm not so sure i do want to move up here anymore"

"what no lac. don't let him stop yer from moving here"

"sam your the only reason i would move up here, and your such a good friend but i'm not sure if it's a good enough reason to move away from everything i've ever known"

""i can give you so many more reasons to move up here, for starters your part of the group now. the girls love you, the lads love you, low lights love you, joanne told me the other night you seem like a gooden, and also you said you wanted to get away from your mum. your so far away from her if your here, far away enough you don't have to worry about her controlling your life but also a close enough distance to visit your dad every now and then"

he does have a point, but it's still not enough to convince me.

"and lacy-" he hesitates "i've never been as happy as i am with you here now"

i turn to look at him stopping in my tracks, this is the first time he's ever talked about his emotions.

"really?" i whisper, he nods now embarrassed.

"your my best friend right now, of course dean is my-you know- person but i can't talk to him the way i can talk to you. i feel like i have this job to make sure your happy and i'm going to do everything i can to live up to it because you've made my life worth living lac. i don't want to go back to the way i was before you came around"