will we talk? {sam fender}

83

august 20th
lacy

"country?!" i burst out laughing at luke who has a guitar in his hand

"i think it could really add to the album" he laughs playing the same country rhythm again jokingly

"it's giving baby taylor swift" i laugh batting his hand away from the guitar so he will stop strumming

our laughter is disturbed by my phone ringing, deans name flashes on screen. my stomach drops, dean never calls unless it's really important. shit maybe something is wrong with sophie

"deano?" i question down the phone

"lacy we have a dilemma" he says, my heart is beating rapidly "it's about sam"

i feel sick, why would they have a dilemma about sam? i thought there was something wrong with sophie and the baby.

"what do you mean" i ask in a panic, uncrossing my legs and sitting up straight

"we were at the low lights..." of course they were "and sam was drinking at rapid speed considering it's a tuesday and he just started getting angry with everyone"

luke looks at me with curiosity as my leg starts to bounce out of anxiety

"i asked him what was up and he said he was in a shitty mood which was clearly quite obvious" dean tells me "but then he started getting angry about you because you weren't replying. he said something about you being to busy shagging your producer..."

my stomach twists in a full 180, i can't believe sam would think that

"and now he is in an uber on his way to your house"

"fuck" i say wiping my hand across my face "dean trust me there is nothing go on between me and luke, you know that right" i tell him, i'm scared

"lacy don't worry we all know sam is just getting in a strop over nothing, we all trust you"

"dean when did he leave? is he going to be here soon?" i ask in a panic "luke is here right now"

"fuck lacy get him out of the house, sam will probably be there within the next hour" dean advices me

"right ok"

"don't overthink it too much lass, sam has always been the jealous type. even with his ex girlfriend, his anger would just take over his body sometimes without him realising. don't think it's because of you that he is acting like this" dean tells me

the anxiety is taking over my body as i watch luke sat on the sofa and the time ticking closer to sam arriving

"ok dean i've got to get luke out, i'll talk to you later" i say

"ok lacy, call if you need anything"

i hang up the phone and look at luke who is waiting for an explanation "i'm really sorry but your going to have to leave, sams on his way drunk and angry"

luke doesn't move, instead he cracks a smile "your kidding right?"

"no luke leave!" i say standing up and taking the guitar off him, he still thinks i'm joking as he doesn't leave his spot on the sofa "luke if your here when he is he won't be afraid to punch you"

"god lacy calm down" he scoffs at me

"no" i yell "i won't calm down, now please get out of my house i don't want him to see you here"

he takes the tear rolling down my cheek as a sign i am serious about him leaving. he sighs and stands up not even bothering to say goodbye

"i'm sorry luke" i say as he walks out of the front door "don't take it personally"

he scoffs and walks off to his car. i shut the door and let out a breath returning to the sofa. now i just have to wait for my drunk boyfriend to arrive. great.

lacy luke is out but i have no idea what to do when sam gets here. if he's angry with me there's nothing i can do about it until he is sober

dean he's sam he won't be angry with you, just angry with life
dean also he always sobers up when there is a cheese toastie on offer so if you have no other options make him a cheese toastie

lacy ok thank you dean

dean you ok?

lacy yes

dean good

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it's around an hour and a half later that sam arrived at my front door, he pounds on it with his fist. when i open it he must have been leaning on the door because he comes falling through catching himself before he falls to the ground

"where is that cunt?!" he yells suddenly looking all around

"who?"

"don't act thick! i know that poor excuse of a man was here, what's his name again. oh luke" he mocks

"sam you need to calm down lover" i say as calmly as i can myself, i lead him to the sofa and grab the glass of water i had already prepared for him

"don't tell me to calm down you cheater!" he yells pushing the glass of water away from him causing it to spill all over me

"sam i havent done anything"

he scoffs at me not meeting my eyes, he slouches in the seat looking straight ahead "that's what they all say"

"i think you need some sleep before you start accusing me off stuff i haven't done" i say sternly placing the glass of water back on the coffee table

"don't tell me what to do! you ain't my mam"

"no but i know you just as well as your mum, sam you need to sober up before you cause an argument with me"

"stop telling me what to fucking do lacy!" he suddenly shouts making me jump. he's just drunk. he doesn't mean it. i remind myself over and over

"god i'm sorry" he then whispers falling back even more on the sofa "i'm such a cunt to you. i'm sorry baby" he says suddenly cupping his hands around my face "i love you so much"

he hiccups "please don't cheat on me lac. please"

"sam i never would" i whisper now joining him on the sofa

"but you would! with that dick luke, what was it like? did he make you scream the same way i do?"

his mood changes are giving me whiplash, he can't make his mind up during his drunkenness.

"sam you need to go to bed"

his jaw tightens and his hands move away from me "why would i listen to a cheater"

"oh for fuck sake!" i yell "i haven't cheated on you and i'm not going to! now please just listen to me and go to bed"

"whatever" he mumbles not moving

why is he being like this?