will we talk? {sam fender}

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my eyes flutter open to the hotel room bright as a light with the sun pouring through the window. i look around to see sam sat up in bed on his phone.

everything that happened yesterday comes fluttering back to me. i'm pregnant.

tonight is my last night at wembley and my last night on tour, i should be celebrating tonight but instead i am pregnant.

i roll over in bed and sam smiles down at me, he clearly hasn't gotten out of bed yet as his hair is still a mess and he's not got his clothes on.

"mornin" he smiles, i sign and cuddle into him with a yawn

"morning" i say between my yawn "what's the time?"

"9" he replies with a stretch pulling me closer to him "lac we need to talk about this all you know"

i sigh and look up at him "it is too early for this...and i haven't had my morning coffee yet" i'm looking for excuses now, im still not sure if i want this baby but as much as he says he will support me i know it would break sam's heart.

"well can we talk after breakfast?" he questions, i hesitate before nodding "ok let's go to breakfast then" he suddenly says jumping up

"what- uh- no what if sophie and dean aren't up yet" i stutter looking for excuses

"they've been up since 5, flo wouldn't sleep" sam grins, great because that makes me want a kid even more.

without much convincing sam finally drags me downstairs to breakfast and we spot sophie, dean and florence all sat at the table already.

we join them and the table is silent, dean and sophie staring at me

"what?" i ask

"sooo..." sophie nudges me, i furrow my eyebrows in confusion, flo is babbling with a yoghurt pouch in her hand "is there going to be a baby fender joining the crew?"

i huff in annoyance at them "can we not talk about that right now"

sophie's smile drops and her lips go into a thin line "sorry" she mumbles

breakfast goes by a lot faster then i would like which just causes more anxiety to build up in me. as we walk back to our hotel room sam doesn't leave my side.

we enter the room and sam turns around before sitting on the bed "there's no escaping this now lacy" he smiles

i huff and sit next to him, my leg bouncing "fuck" i whisper

"it's okay if you don't want this bairn, i'm going to support you no matter what" sam smiles at me

i blink back the tears that come for no reason, jesus this baby is making me way too emotional in so many different ways.

"but sam i've seen you with florence and i see the way you look at dean and sophie" i sigh, his eyebrows furrow "you want this, your 28 years old and all of your friends are settling down"

"but lacy if your not ready then neither am i" he says in confusion

"but i feel like i'm holding you back" i sniff, he takes my hands in his and rests them in his lap

"your not holding me back darlin, we're in all of this together" he strokes the back of my hand "do you want a bairn?"

i look at his blue eyes not knowing what to say "of course i do...im just not sure if i want one now"

i watch his eyes light up slightly but he's quick to disguise it "are you scared?"

i nod shutting my eyes "sam how am i meant to be a mother all of a sudden. i don't even have a mum anymore myself"

his hand rests on my cheek brushing though my hair "we have so much support around us, and you have so many mothers around you to help" he smiles at me "you have soph, you have my mam, your manager and so many others"

i think for a moment just finding comfort in his blue eyes

"it's a scary thing but  everyone is scared at first, i'm scared right now" he opens up

"but sam this means our lives are going to change so much, we won't be able to just go out and party, or just go to the studio whenever or go on tour whenever"

"and that's fine lac, i'm more than okay with making those changes if it means i get to have a bairn with you" he smiles "my album is coming out next month which means i'll do a tour early next year and then we can both just take a break once the baby is here"

he has clearly thought through this all, i thought i noticed him shuffling around a lot in bed last night

"we need to tell your mum sam, she always gives the best advice" i sigh "she'll know how to get our first ultrasound"

he takes a second to realise what i am saying but once he does his face cracks into a wide smile "what" he whispers his excitement growing

"i want to do this with you sam" i smile "i want to have this baby"

"you do?!"

"i do" i nod "holy shit we're gonna have a baby"