will we talk? {sam fender}

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sam

i watch as my girlfriend runs out of the pub dodging dean, sophie and my mum all trying to get to her.

i don't even question taking my guitar off and running after her, i catch up to her quite fast to see her outside gasping for air in the middle of the road.

"lac" i say getting to her quickly, tears are falling down her cheeks faster then i can count.

"darlin tell me what's wrong" i whisper wrapping my arms around her, she places her hand on her chest gasping for air

"lacy you need to breath" i grab her cheeks, she looks at me like i'm a ghost

"sam" she cries pulling into my chest "sam"

"i'm here" i whisper into her hair before placing a gentle kiss on her head, she's still gasping for air

"lacy i think your having a panic attack, you need to breath" i whisper trying to control her breathing

"sam" she gasps again, my heart breaks every time i hear her gasp for more air.

"shh i'm here, just keep breathing lac"

she lets out a sob into me clinging onto my t shirt. i want to know what's upset her so much but i know if i ask it's just going to set her off again.

"do you want to go home?" i ask her once i hear her breathing normally again. she shakes her head against me.

"no your dad and liam aren't here yet"

"that's ok, you'll get to meet them another time. don't worry about it lacy, if you need to go home we can go home"

"no" she cries out again, i quickly tighten my hug on her, i've just settled her i don't need her to cry again. she starts to shiver in my arms, i have goosebumps myself.

summer is slowly approaching but it's still cold out at night.

"your freezing lac, we should go inside" i tell her, she sniffs and looks up at me. her eyes are rimmed red.

"i love you" she whispers placing her hands on my cheeks "i love you so much, please know that and remember that"

"lac" i whisper kissing her gently on the lips "i love you too, so much"

"please don't leave, ever" she sniffs in the middle of our kiss "your so loved sam"

"what are you on about?"

"i just love you"

once lacy is completely settled we go back into the low lights, i don't leave her the whole night. i don't even care that i didn't get to perform my whole album, something is wrong with her and i'm not going to let it slide.

liam and my dad turn up a bit later and lacy greets them with a wide smile. but i know her, i know that smile has been plastered there.

we finally call it a night at 11, i think that was established when daisy fell asleep on joes shoulder, they were in another argument but i guess they're fine now.

"do you want to talk about what happened?" i ask lightly as me and lacy walk hand in hand back to her apartment.

she breaths out slowly "i just had a moment, it's fine. i'm fine"

"but why? what was it about?" i now ask her as gently as i can, the last thing i want is for her to start crying again.

"don't worry about it, i'm fine" she grumbles as we approach her flat, she unlocks the door letting me in first before shutting it behind her.

we're in silence, sitting on the sofa on our phones, i know she is still upset about something but if she is going to tell me what, it won't be tonight.

"i can't believe i told you i love you" she smiles after a while, she chucks her phone to the side and cuddles up to my side.

this girl changes emotions faster then british weather, and that's saying something.

"i think we knew we love each other anyway" i smile also putting my phone down, her head is resting in my lap with her looking up at me.

"yeah but everyone always makes it out to be this big thing of saying i love you for the first time"

"i know! if i'm honest its stupid, i loved you since before we were even together" i admit to her placing a kiss on her lips.

she slowly sits up and turns to me kissing me this time, her hands grab onto my shoulders as she places herself on top of me. i instantly go hard by just her touch.

she kisses me more aggressively now moving her hips on top of me slowly grinding in time with our kisses.

if i'm honest i was unsure of having sex with her tonight, especially if she's not in a good emotional state right now but when she offered to ride me right there on her sofa i couldn't help but say yes.