Wicked Souls

40

I started to go red in the face and looked down.

Dr Harrow noticed that I started turning red, he understood what this meant, I was probably embarrassed about the kiss I had just given him. He knew that what I did was simply an emotional reaction and nothing more, and he had to admit it, he found that I had given him a sweet kiss.

"It's okay..." He spoke calmly and reassuringly as he saw the slight blush on my cheeks, he understood the situation here rather well, and he just wanted to make sure that things didn't get awkward between us two now.

"It's just..." He started to speak again as he decided to proceed. "Do you mind if I ask something more?"

I shook my head, wanting him to continue.

"Did you... do the kiss just as a... result of the moment and emotions you were feeling?" He asked softly as he looked at me, he wanted to know if the kiss had a real meaning or if it was something that I had done out of the moment. He wanted to know for sure how I felt about it.

"I- I don't know, I haven't felt like that before towards anyone," I explained.

"Well..." Dr Harrow then proceeded to look up for a few short seconds, contemplating something. Once he had a thought, he spoke as soon as he could again.

"Do you think... you liked that kiss... even a little bit?" He asked softly as he wanted to know if the kiss meant something to me, or if it was something that I had done impulsively in the moment and had felt something else entirely after it...

"I think so," I expressed softly.

"...You think so?" He raised an eyebrow as he seemed a little bit surprised by this revelation, but he wasn't unhappy about it. He wanted to proceed with figuring this out, however, and so he decided to speak once more.

"Does this mean... you are attracted to me...? Or that the kiss was more than just an emotional response...?" He spoke gently as he tried to figure out the depth of my feelings towards him and the kiss.

"I think I have some feelings, I don't know," I was confused.

"Alright... I think I get the picture..." Dr Harrow then decided to speak once more, he had already gotten the gist of things, although he did want a few more things to be clear.

"So... you think that you do genuinely like me now..." He paused for a bit and then asked another simple question which should help give him a clear picture. "And do you think that you liked me even before you kissed me just now?"

I nodded slowly, I was getting embarrassed.

"I see..." He decided to speak again with a small smile on his face. "There's no need to be embarrassed now, is there...? You're just letting your emotions show.." He spoke gently as he kept his tone soft.

"It is indeed clear to me that you have some genuine feelings towards me..." He continued to speak again, this time even smiling a bit more. "And that's a good thing.."

I kept nodding "So you aren't going to send me off to another therapist?"

Dr Harrow was pleased to see that that was exactly what I was worried about, and he immediately shook his head as he answered me.

"No, I'm not going to do that..." He assured me. "After all..." He started to speak again. "I believe that things can work out between us..." He said with a reassuring yet gentle smile on his face as he tried to reassure me even more.

I looked at him "What do you mean?"

"I mean that we should continue to explore these feelings, these emotions that we both have..." He explained as he saw that I was still a little shocked. "The way I see it..." He continued speaking. "That kiss you gave me... just a little while ago... I believed that..." He paused for a beat, thinking about the best way to express this. "It was a sign of something much bigger between us..."

I nodded.

"And so..." He continued speaking calmly and gently. "I think we should just keep progressing, let these emotions out, let our feelings continue to grow stronger between us and see where things take us..."

I nodded "Slowly?"

"Yes... slowly..." He repeated that word once again, as he wanted to make it clear how he felt about this entire thing. "Slowly, but steadily..." He repeated the word once again. "Progressing at a rate which is more comfortable for the both of us and letting this relationship develop at a good pace which isn't too fast yet not too slow either..." He paused and looked at me. "Does that sound alright with you?"

I nodded again.

"Then it is agreed..." He finished speaking and had a smile on his face as he said this, he was still a little bit surprised but it was a good surprise. "We shall take things step by step, slowly yet steadily..." His smile remained the same, however, showing that he was happy with the agreement.

"Now... is there something... else you would like to talk about...?"

I shook my head "But is it okay if I can bring my sketchbook and pencils here to draw?"

"Absolutely..." He spoke calmly and gently as he agreed to my request, he wanted to allow more opportunities for me to relax, so allowing me to draw here would be a good way to accomplish just that.

"I see no problem with that..." Dr Harrow continued to speak as he kept his calm and gentle demeanour, letting me know that he would allow me to draw here if that made me relax more.