Wicked Souls

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I turned around, lying with my back face to his. As I tried to get more comfortable.

He felt a soft movement from me and he was still holding my hand. He felt my body move as I moved my back towards his back, and as I did this, he started shifting his body as well. He slowly turned around his body to face the same direction as I as he kept his hold on my hand throughout the process.

He was now big spooning me, I kept holding his hand.

He had now become the big spoon, he had his arms wrapped around me as he slowly but gently pulled me towards him. This caused me to have a tighter grip on his hands, which he didn't mind at all. He kept moving his one hand slightly as he looked at his fingers which were wrapped with mine, his face was gently rubbing against my hair as his other hand was on the side of my body, holding me.

"You awake?" I said quietly.

He did wake up from the sudden sound of my voice, he was still a little bit tired as he spoke in a very quiet and sleepy voice.

"Slightly awake... I am..." He then kept his movements very slow as he kept his hands still on right now. He was curious about the sudden change of tone in my voice, and he wanted to ask what was wrong.

"Just go back to sleep, baby," I whispered.

He remained silent for a bit as he then spoke once again with that very sleepy and tired tone of voice.

"Mmm okay... Is there anything wrong...? You sounded slightly different, just now..."

"I'm cold and can't sleep."

He heard this he then felt a bit of coldness being felt by my body as well when I shifted next to him.

"You're cold...? Here..." He then gently scooted his body closer to me as he wrapped his arms around me which made his body warm. He then gave me a little squeeze as he kept trying to hold me in a close spot for him.

"Better..?" He spoke up with a more calm and loving tone of voice, still tired though.

I nodded slowly.

"Good..." He then slowly moved one of his hands and he ran one hand through my hair gently as I was pressed close to his body and he kept holding me close within his arms.

He continued to lie in this position, he felt my body pressed up against his so tight that he could feel my soft and warm body against his. He enjoyed the embrace as he felt my presence in his arms, this made him feel very nice as his other hand gently rubbed my hair.

He was feeling all of this right now as he was just gently stroking my hair with his hand, he could feel my hair being soft as he kept running his fingers slowly through my hair, feeling the texture and the softness.

After a few moments, he began to speak once again as he wanted to ask me one small and simple question.

"Baby, I have a small question for you, okay.."

I nodded.

"Earlier on... I asked you about marriage and kids..." He started the question with a soft calm tone, he wanted to bring this up to me again which he had already asked before.

"Yeah.."

"When we discussed that, you seemed to have wanted my opinion as well, and I have one right now that I wanted to share with you..." He then took a breath in he looked at my face, he wanted my full attention at that moment...

"Tell me." I turned around and looked into his eyes.

"Mmm..." He took another breath as he spoke with his soft and gentle voice. "Well, I do wanna get married and I do want to have kids..." He then slightly smiled as he spoke.

I smiled at him softly. "Me too."

He kept smiling as well as he looked at me, his eyes were now more fixated upon mine as he kept speaking...

"But..." He took another breath as he suddenly paused.

"I'm also... A bit worried about it, especially with the kids..." He now stated as he slowly spoke up, that this was a more important topic that he wanted to get out of the way in case I was thinking about this as well.

"Why?"

"Well, it's only because I... I just worry that I'll mess things up with them in future, I don't know how to be a dad..." He was completely honest about how he was feeling about this, he still had some doubts about his capability of being a dad. Especially since there are a lot of responsibilities that come with children, especially when they're young.

"No one does when they first have a child, then they will suddenly figure it out."

He was silent for a bit as he heard my wise words of reassurance, it did make him feel better and his body now relaxed as he was less tense about this issue that he had been worrying about.

"Yeah, you are right... Just got to learn slowly as they grow..." He now said this with more confidence as he spoke, he was going to try his best for his future children. He slowly spoke again as he looked right into my eyes...

"And I will try my best, to be the best father for them when that time comes..." He then smiled softly at me once again, he knew that deep down there would be tough times in the future, but he would give it his all to be a good father to his children, even if they're not perfect and they turn out to be completely different from him in terms of behaviour and personality, he was now sure on his decision with children.

"I know you will be." I gently kissed him. "I love you."

He was slowly taken by surprise when I kissed him, this made him more relaxed now as he smiled as well, he still got butterflies when I kissed him. He had always been used to me being very tender and intimate with him.

"I love you too.." He then paused as he held me closer to him once again, his other arm had also moved to wrap around my body as he kept me still within his embrace.