My Savior 🔞 ( Part One )

Awakening

"Will! I demand answers! Now!"
My mind was blocked. What to say? Why did I not just break up? Why was I so stupid and coward??
"I... Well , I mean I just..."
The machine got up, put it's hand on my shoulder .
"My apologies Miss. It was my fault. I kept nagging Mr. O'Hara to explain to me how being kissed feels. You may not have noticed but I'm not a real person, only a humanoid which explains my lack of experiences and my limitless curiosity "
It lied..   it lied for my sake. But will this ruin my relationship with Lorette?
"What the hell.."
Her face was full of a mixture of emotions . Anger, discomfort and pain.
"How can your father allow this inappropriate behavior from a stupid machine? Tell him to send it back and get it destroyed! This is the most disgusting thing I've ever heard ! "
" I know, I know.. I'm sorry baby, I don't know what got into me. I told it that I can't explain , it needs to be felt and then..."
She glared at me with annoyance in her eyes
"Shut up! I need time to calm down. I can't believe you'd allow a servant to do this crap! A stupid robot by the way "
So she doesn't want to break up. I made fool of myself for nothing. Cool. Time to be rude.
"Look you stup..."
"..I'm sorry Miss, like I said, it's completely my fault. But if I am getting sent away, I am unsure what will happen to Mr. O'Hara as I am his personal assistant. We need to ..."
"Shut up! Shut up you freak! You're not a human and you will NOT touch my man ever again! I'll make sure you'll be destroyed utterly and never be fixed ! You can't even exist as a humanoid ! You're a pest to this world !"
I've had enough. I've never seen her this mad at all , nor heard her cussing  so bad .
But I came to realize, she was the same like me. Her opinion about these robots , her views . The exact same like mine. She sure hated these things. I didn't know why and I didn't have to know why. I got tired of her, literally. I didn't need a female me in my life.
"Why don't you fucking leave you dumb bimbo?"
Her eyes got wide open. Staring at me speechlessly. Good.
"He is my assistant and you are only my fucking good-for-one side chick! You got no right to talk shit at my home! I don't want to see your face! Got it?"
I could see tears rolling down her face. I guess I successfully humbled her down . And probably humiliated. Hopefully it worked and she would break up.
It was few minutes of silence. I put my hands on my waist  to show who's the boss here.
"Fuck you! You're just the same as any other guy! I'll make sure everyone knows about your little gay kiss!!"
...!!!
That was exactly what I tried to avoid. But before I could stop her she stormed out.
"Fuck!! Fuck! That stupid bitch will talk shit! "
As if I didn't already have enough problems with people and their gossips.
"But you're not gay and everyone knows. I don't think they'd believe her words over yours"
I sighed, tightening my fist so hard it began to hurt.
"...you don't know her. You don't know the people in my fucking university. They believe anything. And if a girl says they'll believe it faster. I'm so screwed..."
I dropped down on my bed. What to do now? Call her and apologize? Not happening.
While burying my face into my palms I mumbled for myself. What done is done. If I'm lucky she ain't telling her dad too. Because ... You know what will happen.
"Why I'm like this? Why...?"
I felt it sitting down next to me. It was silent. Allowing me letting out the steam.
"..was it worth it?"
Finally the robot by my side asked. And for a moment I was uncertain about what it meant.
"Worth what?"
It looked away as if it didn't hear me. I assume it got used to my tantrums by now. I could see it's facial expressions changing slowly. From being neutral to shy ..  which was weird.
"..kissing me. Was it worth it?"
I can't lie, it caused me more problem but at least Lorette was in the past now. But my future? Seemed fucked up already.
"I'm not gay.. I did it so I could get rid of her... I...didn't get better idea , that's all"
Silence. But this time it was uncomfortable. I sighed again. My heartbeat was normal again, despite the shit show that just happened. And then..
"If you want to know, I don't know about my own sexuality, because we aren't programmed to feel much, but if you want me to satisfy your needs.. "
I could feel it. My dumb face turning red and burning like hell .
*Satisfy my needs*
I felt more confident earlier when I pushed it down on the bed, but now? Now I felt vulnerable and awkward.
*Satisfy my needs*
It kept repeating in my head .
The longer I stayed silent the longer my mind was able to create a very disturbing scenario.
*Satisfy my needs*
What.. ? What needs? Did he just...
"Moron... I told , I am straight. Don't touch me. I'm fine .."
"You had so many other ways to break up with your lady, yet you chose the dirtiest. Who are you fooling then?"
I knew what I was and what I wasn't.  I only dated girls. Never men. Never kissed any men and never had sex with any. Because it was gross.
I mean.. I definitely haven't felt any connections with girls either but I guess straight is the *normal*
"..shut it. You're a robot, you wouldn't feel anything anyway "
Would it though? I mean ..who cares .
I was standing still, with my mind in mess and ...in the gutter.
While it looked like a human male, I doubted it also functioned the same as one. I'm male, and human. I know how we *function*.
"I leave with your thoughts , but don't worry I'll take responsibility for your actions, no matter what happens. I'll protect you from any further punishments "
I felt it again. My heart throbbing like crazy. I didn't need protection. Or ..did I ? My father was ready in any moment to send me to the military. As much as I hated this, I owed him a debt of gratitude.
"Wait..."
It turned around and looked at me, fixing his sleeve after I ruined it twice now.
"Look..you shouldn't have lied to her . I used you for my plan. If my father gets to know about this little incident, he sure will destroy you with his bare hand and.. I don't know if I really want that"
The machine then closed the door, as it was still open after Lorette ran out.
"If it costs my existence, I'm fine with it. But I can't afford you to cause more problems and make bad decisions which lead you to lose a good future that you'd deserve. You hate me and it's clear,  but it's not stopping me from caring about your life from now on"
It put me in silence for good. It really did seem to care about my problematic ass. More than any actual human ever did in my life so far . It took me more than two months but I had to accept. I can no longer consider it as an object.
Not when he awakens something sinful inside me..