My Savior 🔞 ( Part One )

Panic

I was petrified. They were laughing and saying things. I was way too anxious to have some nice come backs. My mouth felt dry and my ears began to ring. I could feel my chest bumping madly..
*They kissed*
*Gay*
*I should have known*
*I'll end you here*
*Shouldn't have fucking with my feelings*
*Gay, you have always been gay*
*Wait till your father knows, I'll make sure he will*
*What can you do now?*
Right what could I ?
I felt, it's only matter of time and I'll either faint or yell.
But yelling will make chaos and an unnecessary show for the people around us. I didn't need that. Miles was standing close, silently. Perhaps he wasn't sure either what to say or do. I wish I could slap their mouth closed but I couldn't. Mom raised me not to rise a hand on any girls. But she won't stop talking and mocking . What if she tells in the school too?? What if she really does tell my parents? I'm doomed. And there was nothing I could do. It was my payment for being a coward and not  breaking up with her properly. I've had naive girlfriends, stupid ones, cheating ones.. but turns out, Lorette was the worst. When in the begging she seemed to be the most okay.. I was wrong. Shouldn't have messed with her, now I'm in her hand.
"I am sorry Miss, you came to Mr O'Hara's home and dared him to make out with his own servant. He didn't want to do it but you threatened him saying you'll leave him"
My eyes widened open. Did he just make up a lie? I was speechless. I never imagined he can do it .
"Wait what? Lorette. You said you caught them making out.."
"Because I did! Do you think I'd be furious if it wasn't the way I said?"
Her friends looked at her confused.  Luckily, one of them appeared not believing her story.
"Cut the shit girl, you've lied about Mike cheating on you before. Why do I feel it's the same case ?"
My anxiety level dropped a bit. This girl was questioning her. Maybe, I had some luck.
"Miss, he begged you. He refused to kiss anyone else but you. But you got angry and stormed out. He wasn't even able to call you "
"Shut your damn mouth you machine! It's a lie! You are his fuck toy! No wonder he doesn't want anything with girls!"
I joined. I hoped for the best, and that I won't ruin it.
"Lorette,  both you and I know, it wasn't the first time when you asked me to do something I didn't like. You always asked me impossible things then got so mad when I didn't do them.. I tried to be the best boyfriend for you but I'm tired of your games.."
Miles crossed his arms. I took it as a sign to shut up. Maybe I said too much. Maybe he was able to handle alone. I don't know.
"See.. I knew you're full of shit. I'm so glad I didn't believe anything you told us about Will."
"What the hell Marion? This thing is lying and this cheating bastard too!! I'm the victim here not him!"
The other two girls were silent, I could tell, they began to judge her silently. I wasn't proud of this since she indeed was the victim and we made it worse
"It's ok. Let her be. We're done, I'm not mad. If she wants to be, she can. We're no longer dating , but all I want is to clear, I've never kissed anyone else while we were together "
"Chris, Danielle! You can't believe this bullshit.. he's the worst and they both are lying..!!"
"Lorette, it's fine. We're done. I'm sorry you had to come out with lies . Let's walk on different paths from now on. I wish you the best. Come on Miles, let's leave the ladies"
"What the hell???"
She said something more but we left them. It's enough for me if they are doubting her words. No proof anyway. So, I am free. I was feeling guilty but it was done. Nothing more I could do. The best I could do, leaving her ass there without arguing .
We were in the car. I let Miles drive. I wasn't in the right state for it. My heart was still pounding. Someone above still cares about me, it seems..
"I'm sorry that I lied, but I had to do something. The situation demanded it. I wish I could think of anything better. I apologize."
"You don't need. You reacted quick enough. I'm not proud of us, but it's better than her telling around what happened.. thank you for saving my ass again..."
I lowered my look. It was embarrassing. This can't go on. My stomach hurt so bad. I was hungry and nervous. And probably pale too. I felt like throwing up.
What was I ? What..? Lorette could give me hell and if I wasn't with Miles, I'd have been fucked so bad. I'm so dumb. So very dumb .
"It's okay. I can handle it. I can handle you "
He was so confident I wish I could be. All my life I thought I was the boss and people feared me. But who am I kidding? 
"It's alright Will, you can be yourself with me. We'll heal you and make a better future for you"
He was smiling, I was able to see from the corner of my eyes. How could he be so humane..
"Let's... not tell my parents.. not only this incident but...what I did with you.."
"Hm? Did you regret it ?"
Did I ? I hesitated. It was new and interesting but somehow a little scary too. I can't stress this enough , even if he wasn't a machine, he still wasn't a woman
"Look... Maybe you're not as bad as I thought..maybe we can be .. friends and I won't be an asshole with you but... I don't know if it's okay to kiss another man.."
Obviously, for him it didn't really matter. He didn't feel shame, he couldn't feel if it was right or wrong. He won't be bullied or humiliated..  it's only me in this. It's only about what I think and feel about it. And at this point, I was very uncertain. Why deny that it felt nice ? But I was so terrified to admit..
"It's okay.."
He was gentle. Didn't say anything more after that. The way home was only 10-12 minutes , but now, I felt it was at least two hours.