My Savior 🔞 ( Part One )

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It's been three weeks since Lorette broke up with me . I wasn't the most famous in the University. Although I haven't been before either. I don't know what she told everyone, since I couldn't catch a word from anyone. They were very careful. Winter was at the door. My parents wanted to go on a vacation like always. I was wondering if they'd ask me too. I really needed some time away from these people. I barely joined them on any trips because I was bored whenever they demanded me to behave. And even there I was alone. I couldn't make friends . But this time is different. Miles would come too probably.  Father seemed to be in a good mood during dinner. It was the best opportunity to ask him .
"Dad. I was wondering. Will you two leave for a trip again this December? Or do you work during the holidays too?"
"Don't say you'd come with us. You're not leaving this country while we can't trust you to behave like a decent human"
"..Roman. Don't be so harsh my dear. Will is acting good. He's an adult, let him come. We should spend time together like a family "
No matter how many times I let her down, mom had my back forever.
"No dramas, no police, no skipping classes. You can't deny that his assistant is helping a lot. Our son deserves some fresh air away from this stressful life"
"Dad, really... I haven't done anything lately. Let me join. You won't regret it.. and you don't even need to worry as long as Miles is there"
"Fine. I give you a chance but the moment I catch you bringing shame on us, you will travel home. And your assistant is having a break while we're away. I'll turn him off"
What?? That's not going to happen
"It's a great idea! You don't need him there. And if you keep this attitude and behavior like this, I think your father can send the humanoid back in 1-2 months."
I frowned. I started to dislike where this conversation was going.  Not bringing Miles with us was one thing. I admit he earned some rest. But taking him away now?? Yeah fuck no.
"Forget it. I no longer want to go with you two"
My father showed his strictest look. It was clear, he didn't like my response.
"Drop this attitude. Your mother just praised you a moment ago. I was thinking that she may be right, but you're failing yourself "
"Of course you'd say that. I did my hardest ! I did what my fucking assistant said! Why are you punishing me now? Why would you take him away? He's *mine*"
I should have known that it was impossible to spend a dinner together with my parents in the spirit of peace. Fuck that.
"Silence! I got you him and I'll take away when I see his job is done! But you proved your mother wrong. You're acting. You didn't change at all. You're just a brat "
I've had enough. What was I thinking? Spending any more minutes with this person? I rather die...
I jumped up and rushed away. Not to my room. I knew my mother would follow me there. I stormed out to the greenhouse . The plants always helped me when I was furious. I just wanted to have fun, except the shit with Lorette, I really didn't do anything the past months. I only wanted to have a nice holiday with my parents. I guess it was too much to ask for .
My heart was aching. If I show change , dad will bring Miles back since his job is done. But if I don't? I can go to the military..
"I can't.. I can't let him go..."
Little by little I grew closer to that humanoid. I caught myself even thinking about him when he wasn't around...
"..why does he want to punish me this way...? Can I not have a friend?"
I heard footsteps. Not heels, so it wasn't my mother.  I was sitting on the bench, surrounded by all kinds of plants. Then a hand landed on my shoulder.
"..I heard your father yelling at you. I was sure you'd leave, but you weren't in your room"
I peeked up, not like I had to. I knew this voice .
"Dad wants you away... "
"But haven't I warned you about that? Once I'm done here, they'll take me back. My memory will be reseted and I can be sold again. I'll end with another person. That's the purpose of my *life* "
I pulled my hair in frustration. I was well aware! But I got attached! I wish I didn't, because thinking about it hurt as hell .. Isolation was never  good for me.
"Fuck you! I wish you never came here! I feel more miserable now! I got used to you ..  I can't ... I can't bear the idea of you leaving .."
He sat down next to me.  Placed his hand on my thigh. My heart dropped in my chest ... Why does he need to make it worse??
"Screw off...."
He moved his hand away with a soft sigh
"I'm sorry. I want to make  the rest of our time together as good as possible. Alas, it can't be changed . As long as you need me, I can stay , but you shouldn't make things worse for yourself "
Tears rolled down my face. I don't want to be lonely again. I turned towards him, placed my head into his chest. I hated to have feelings . And he became my friend. Or something like that..
"I'm not leaving.. "
"But you will... And my life will be lonely and grey again.. then what stops me from fucking it up more? Only you motivate me..."
Miles started to stroke my hair. So gently. I felt bad for wetting his shirt . I wish he was real ... Then my father could not   send him away ..
"You're...so absolutely gorgeous..."
Maybe it was the sorrow in me that allowed me to speak out my true feelings. Maybe not . I noticed the surprise in his soft brown eyes. Of course , he wasn't used to me giving him compliments.
"Will..."
I moved to his lap and turned towards him
"If you're feeling awkward, I can just .."
"It's not that... You're giving me hard time here"
I raised my eyebrows. He was damn tempting but at times way too mysterious.
"Just say what you want, sometimes it's impossible to ..."
I felt my hip move slightly.
*Hard time*
"You...."
But how? He wasn't supposed to feel. Then how did it ...??
"Let's...sneak back to my room. You got my attention"
"You're just curious and nasty"
He pursed his lips, mocking me but I didn't mind this time.
I indeed was curious. But who can blame me. I stood up and reached my hand for him.
He seemed shy suddenly. Taking my hand he got up as well. Despite my curiosity and immoral desires, I was nervous too.
"It's okay. You're so fucking fine. We can just chill or...let the mood decide where the night leads us"
He bit into his lips. Did this man just get even more seductive? I was uncertain for so long but not tonight. I knew, I was in heat..