Peace

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After our conversation, Hector made Miles lay on the couch. It was actually cute, as if Miles was his child who he had to take care of.
"Let's get you something to eat. You're skinny"
"I'm fine..I've always been skinny. You don't need to baby me"
"I'm not babying you. I take care of you, kind of different. Now get your ass to the kitchen and we eat together"
Did I have any choice? Even the doctor said I should gain some weight. I was hungry, I didn't deny it. It was almost the same as with Miles. Hector was only sitting there after serving me nice variations of foods. He let me eat . I starved myself so bad the past weeks that my stomach began to hurt after eating the smallest amount.
"Enough? Do you need something?"
"No..I'm fine, thank you"
It was there again. My tears.. I wanted this feeling good. I didn't want to be a burden. 
"Say, are you tired? You probably had a rough day, but if you're not ready to head to bed, then we can talk or get some fresh air"
"Would you mind? Going out a bit..?"
"Not at all"
I forgot that I didn't have anything warm to wear.  Or.. anything at all.
"Do..do you still have my clothes from last time?"
"Actually? Even better"
He not only returned with the clothes I left here, but also bought me a long jacket.
"Last time I caught you in the rain, I felt bad..."
It was my size. He didn't have to do it but he did nonetheless. I felt shy. He helped me get it on. He was a gentleman.
"Thank you.."
His smile..the smile that I loved about Miles too. I forgot the rich businessman.  He could see through me, didn't judge me at all. Perhaps..I shouldn't either. He was Miles but human. 
"Let's go"
Although he had a car, he chose to take me on a walk. And you know? I liked the idea.
The city here is calm , barely a few cars passed by us.  I never had a chance to enjoy this with anyone.  It felt like a date..
"You don't belong there"
"I beg your pardon?"
"What I meant, you belong somewhere where you can feel loved. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to judge your parents. They're hardworking and probably good people. But definitely not good parents "
"It's fine.. I heard what they said about you. They had no right, only because you're gay..."
"You think I haven't heard that before? Yes I'm gay, yes I live alone , yes I don't have a family and I don't plan to have for a while"
"But..isn't it boring? Don't you feel lonely? I do.. all my life I've been lonely"
"Will, we're not the same. My parents spent a lot of time with me. Yours didn't. I never felt lonely. I have peace . And you're here now. I can't ask for more "
He was honest and sweet. How did I not notice it before? Perhaps, I was way too selfish. Being in my little spoiled bubble all my life. Never wondered about how others have their lives. Only cared about mine and judged people without knowing them..
"Did you mean it..?"
"Mean what?"
I felt raindrops on my cheek, but I wasn't bothered. We walked for an hour or more, a little rain won't scare me.
"That..that you love me.."
He put his hand on my waist, pulled my closer to be under his arm.
"Why would I lie? We don't know each other enough, but you just have something unique in you. I understand that you dislike me, but give me a chance to show you that you can be loved. You're worth it. You're a good person who grew up in a bad environment."
I didn't know what to say .  The rain began to pour on us, and it shone on the black asphalt.  The world stopped to exist. My head was spinning even though I wasn't dizzy from hunger anymore.
Hector cupped my chin, lifted it to place a kiss on my lips. I felt my body tremble.
"You're sweet"
That's all I could press out . Hector opened his umbrella and handed it to me, even though we both were wet already.
"..better now than never"
It made me giggle.
"Let's get back home?"
Home... It sounded so unfamiliar yet inviting. Maybe the family you choose is better than the family you were born in.
"Let's go"

We took the longer way, just to enjoy each other's company

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We took the longer way, just to enjoy each other's company. He never let go of my hand even for a moment. We could easily get a taxi, but it was better. I haven't felt this free for months. And I *never* felt this peace before.. I thought it can never happen to me. That I didn't deserve joy or anything nice. I didn't dare to  hope for my life to get better so let's just be patient and see where it takes me from now.
Once we were back,  we came to realization.
"Will. I understand if you don't feel comfortable sleeping in my bed. I'm fine  on the couch"
"What? No way! It's your house...and not like we didn't have sex already. There is nothing new"
He pressed a kiss on my head, the same way Miles did earlier. I began to get used to this treatment .
"Having sex and sleeping together aren't the same. You should know. I doubt you and Miles only use the same bed for sex"
"No...but he doesn't need to sleep ..he..just mimics me, laying there and resting his eyes.."
I suddenly caught myself thinking about the dirtiest idea ever.  
*Sleeping with these two* if you catch my drift.  My face was probably giving away my nasty thoughts, because Hector pinched my cheek softly.
"Getting dirty ideas, don't we? "
"W..what?! No..."
"I can literally see it in your eyes. But I can't blame you. If you're fine with the idea, you're welcome in my bed"
Yeah? I was now way too awkward and...hard. As long as it was comfortable, I didn't mind being on the couch with Miles.
"I..pass for now but thank you. And..for everything else"
I pulled him down by his collar and kissed him. None of us was bothered by the wetness. I stroked his messy curls, and he kept me close in his arms.
It was so weird that hours ago I wanted to end my life and now, I was giving myself another chance to be happy..
Hector bought me a towel and some dry clothes then left me alone to rest. He only asked me to feel free to find him if I needed something. For a short time, I was happy. Everything seemed better. I turned my phone off and got myself on the couch. It was nice. Miles being there was an extra, even if he was turned off.
"Maybe you were right...Hector is just *you*..but with complex emotions. It's to allow myself to be happy. I deserve it..."
And you know how things are. Silence and peace before the storm. Of course. Why would my life be simple and calm for way too long?

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