Nick and Charlie-one shots

"Nick?.."-tw⛔️

Tw-self harm and depressive thoughts

Charlie's pov:
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'Least painful ways to die.'

I had at-least 5 different variations of those searches on google, but they all told me to call some number.

Some helpline. Whatever. I closed my laptop and went to the bathroom. I deserve this. I make everyone's life living hell, why should I even try.

So I picked up the blade..

Time skip( Friday)

Insta:

Nick_nzzz
Hi! I'm outside the door
           
I'm coming!!

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I ran downstairs and opened the door
"Hi!"
"Hi!"
I hugged Nick and we went up to my room to see a movie.

"Omg I have been dying to show u this movie" Nick says with a huge smile.

"Okay" I say giggling "you can take my laptop and put it on, I'll make us a tea"

"Okay old man" Nick said laughing.
"Shut up!!" I say turning my back and closing the door.

Nicks pov:

Charlie reminds me so much of an old man, I can't believe he's not one.

I grabbed Charlie's laptop that was on his desk, and opened it and went to google so I could log into Netflix.

But then I saw his google searches on the tab.

What the hell? "Least painful ways to die"
"What is the lethal dose of Benadryl?" what the actual hell.
I start tearing up.

Why would Charlie search that up? Does he want to- no... he wouldn't would he?... Oh god. Is he planning something. Is he okay? Is he gonna hurt himself? Is he-

My mind gets disrupted by Charlie re entering the door with our teas.

"I got them!"
But he stops. And looks at my red puffy eyes.

Charlie pov:

"Uh nick? What's wrong?"

He's just sitting on the bed with my laptop open crying. Why was he crying? He doesn't answer.
I place the cups on the table.

Wait why-

And then I realize. holy shit. Did I not clear my tabs?

"Shit uhm nick."

I go to reach for the laptop but he moves and grips the laptop tightly.

"Nick?.."

"Charlie, why are- why is- why are you searching this up?"

A silence fills the room.

God I'm so stupid. I start crying.

"I'm sorry Nick. I'm so so sorry"

He puts the laptop down and springs up from the bed and went to hug me. "Don't say sorry we banned the s word, remember? It's not your fault."

"Charlie I'm here for you. You just have to talk to me, please."

"Nick I- I haven't been good. I've been.. I've-"

I start tearing up again and start looking at my arm. He gets the hint. He takes my arm, rolls my sleeves up and sees the scars from Tuesday. God I'm so pathetic.

"Oh Charlie.." he says with a soft sad voice.

He kissed them and I feel his warm touch against my arm.

"I'm here for you Charlie I love you please. I couldn't live without you."

"I'm sorry Nick I love you too. Can we just take a nap or something?.."

"Of course Charlie but can you please promise to tell me if anything happens again. I care about you too much."

"I promise I love you."

He gives me a long kiss and starts to cuddle with me on the bed. I know he's crying, he's trying to hide it but he is. I feel so bad but I love how he cares for me. I just wish I wasn't a burden.

"Your not a burden Charlie" it's almost as if he was reading my mind.

"I love you."

"I love you more char"
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