Nick and Charlie-one shots

Cuts⛔️ pt.1

Charlies pov:

There's only two things I can count on. Nick and blades. The razor blades numb the pain, they make me feel sane. They make me whole again, they make me feel in control. Nick is lovely and I haven't said it but I love him so much. But what troubles me is if somebody asked to either give up the blades or Nick I would have trouble answering. It's all I do. It's what my life is all about.

Cutting.

The razor blade is so useless yet so useful. How do I get rid of something that keeps me alive, something that makes me feel like a person. So when me and Nick got into a fight, I didn't know whether to choose him or the blades.

"How are you going to keep suffering like this Charlie? Day by day. WHEN IM RIGHT HERE." He stares and me and his face is bright red.

"IM RIGHT HERE CHARLIE. YELL AT ME FUCKING YELL BUT LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU NEED HELP." I scoff at his reaction. He expects me to choose between the person I love and the thing that keeps me alive.

He had just found out about my frequent cutting. It's been worse, everything has been worse. but i just can't believe I'm going to have to choose between both.

"Charlie. I love you but you can't expect me to help when I DONT KNOW WHEN YOU NEED HELP."

"i don't need help." I quietly mumble while nick paces around my room.

"What?"

"I DONT NEED HELP." He stops pacing and stares at me. I stand up.

"LOOK." I roll up my sleeves showing him all of the cuts, he stares, I roll my sleeves back down.

"YES I CUT MYSELF. BUT I DONT NEED HELP, I DONT NEED YOU TO BABYSIT ME LIKE A FUCKING CHILD." He stares at me and his hands turn into a fist, I've never seen him like this.

"ITS A MENTAL ILLNESS NICK-"

"FUCK. I KNOW CHARLIE. YOU DONT THINK I KNOW? BUT IVE BEEN TRYING SO HARD. SO.HARD. AND YOU DO NOTHING TO GET BETTER." I start to cry hearing him. What the hell. 'I do nothing to get better'?

...

This isn't nick. What the hell is happening.

"Leave." I tell him while my voice cracks.

He looks at me in disbelief.

"FUCKING LEAVE NICK.LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE." I say while pointing at the door. He looks at me one more time.

"Don't text me." He leaves and shuts the door.

Shit.

I can't do anything to fix this.

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Tao🤓

              Tao, come over please.

👍

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A few minutes later I hear a knock on the door snd go downstairs to open it. Tao is ready to say a joke but once he sees my red crying face he immediately hugs me and we walk upstairs.

After I finished telling him what happened he got pissed.

"Why the HELL would Nick Nelson act like that. I told you he wasn't different from the other-" I cut him off.

"Don't. Don't say that.I also did something wrong. But we both need to apologize." He sighs and hugs me again.

"I told my mom I'm going to sleep over." Tao says while standing and dancing. I laugh slightly and nod at him.

It was around 8 when Tao brought up the idea.

"Come on, I'll be here to mediate and y'all can talk it out. You don't have to be shy Charlie I know all about the-your- er it." I sigh snd slightly nod hoping he could stop talking about it. He pulls out his phone and calls nick.

"Yeah come to Charlie's, mhm,mhm, I know. Hm okay. Bye." He sighs and smiles hopeful.

"He's coming."