Nick and Charlie-one shots

Cuts⛔️pt.2

Taos pov:

I open the door.

I see a very upset nick, he flashes me a fake smile and he comes inside.

"So where is he."

He says while putting his hands in his jeans pockets and looking at the floor.

"Upstairs. I'll be outside waiting." I say while anxiously looking across the room. He nods and walks up slowly, he takes a big sigh and then I hear a door close and open. I walk upstairs quietly, sit on the floor, and try to listen to their conversation.

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Nicks pov:

I open the door and see Charlie in his bed, he's under all the comforters. I honestly have no idea what to say. I fucked up- I know that. But Charlie- he- also did. Yes emotions were running high but I'm not sure if we can fix this. I'm not sure if I can fix this.

Charlie's head pops up from under the comforters and he goes back to hiding his face like a turtle. His face is toward the wall and he's closer to the wall, so I get in the bed and cuddle with him.

He tenses when he feels my hands but slowly but surely, he lets me hold him. We don't say anything for a while.

I feel Charlie shaking under my touch, God I feel horrible.

I get the courage to talk.

"Love can't cure a mental illness." I say to him, he turns around and looks at me with teary eyes.

"That's what my mom said. Love can't cure a mental illness." He looks at me confused.

"Love? You- love-me?" He asks and I feel my cheeks burning hot. I want to say no, im scared he doesn't feel the same. But i do. Because I fucking love him.

"Yes Charlie. I love you. I love everything about you. I-I love you."

He smiles slightly.

I start to feel myself cry.

"I need you to help me out charlie. Please I don't understand this mental illness stuff. I know I don't. But I want you to be better, I want to be able to help you be better."

I stare into his eyes and cup his cheek with my left hand. I rub my thumb and get closer to him.

"It's not your fault." His voice cracks as he continues to talk.

"I'm just- going through something. Your moms right. I love you too- a lot Nicholas. But even though you really want to, you can't do much to help." He whispers to me, tears roll down his eyes as I begin to speak.

"But nick, your being amazing. Your doing everything you can and more. And I fucking love you for that."

"I just need you to talk to me Charlie. I'm sorry for everything I said. It's all my fault." I start to cry infront of him. I hate crying in front of Charlie. I always want him to think I'm strong.

But, how can he trust me to be vulnerable when I'm not vulnerable to him?

"I'm sorry too Nick. I said horrible shit. But I don't want you to leave me. Ever." He starts to cry more this time and I wipe his tears away.

"I never will- Mi amore" he laughs slightly and rests his head into on chest. I kiss him on the head. I rub his arms and put him as close as possible to me.

I hear a knock.

I see tao and he opens the door. It looks like he was crying too.

"I'm gonna go. I'm glad you guys are good now. " he smiles and closes the door.

I Can hear from downstairs the door opening and shutting. I kiss Charlie on the cheek before talking to him about nellie's new trick.

God, I really really love this man.

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640 words.