Nick and Charlie-one shots

The end ⛔️1/?

These series of one shots will cover more heavier topics such as suicide and self harm, if your in a bad headspace seek help, don't do anything to hurt yourself. You are loved.

Charlie's pov:

I Can never stop. I will always be cursed. I'm always in a spiral of thoughts and I can't get out. I will always hurt myself. It makes no sense to try. No sense at all. I try to fix myself but I can't.

All I do is bother people, I bother my parents, they probably don't even like me. Tori is probably tired of being careful around me, and Nick is probably annoyed of always helping me through this. So why not do them all a favor.

Whats the point of trying? The tears fall on my cheek. The bottle of paracetamol in my hand makes me shake.

I look over at my newly cut wrists. I deserve this.

Why am I scared? It's what I've been wanting to do. Why can't I just do it.

I Guess Im scared. But this is my escape, this is how I will no longer suffer. My rooms clean, the letters are written.
One to Nick, Tori, my parents, Tao, Elle and all of my other friends.

So just fucking do it Charlie.

Just. Do. it.

I shakily un-cap the medicine bottle. It's a full bottle, I don't think I have to take all of them. I'll take half.

The water bottle is by my side and I push them all in my mouth. Finally, an escape to all of this madness.

The room starts to spin. I pick my phone and text my last final message.

"I love you Nick forever and always. it's not your fault."

Sent.

I immediately hear my phone buzzing, but I don't check it. I want to die peacefully without worries.

God I feel so nauseous, there's no turning back now.

Who knew even dying was exhausting.

The letters are on the bed, I lay down on my carpet. The room turns black. This is it.

My peace.

Nicks pov:

"Aww good girl Nellie." I give her belly rubs, and she starts to pant. She's such a cutie. I go on my messaging app to text Charlie, maybe he'd like to come over.

His parents might not let him though since it is 10pm.

I see that he's already typing. Lmao he probably wants to hang out too. God I love him.

"I love you Nick forever and always. it's not your fault."

Aw he's so sweet. But what does he mean its not my fault. What's not my fault?

"I love you too Charlie but what's not my fault?"

No response.

He always replies quick. No matter what he does.

What the hell?

oh my god.

OH MY GOD.

I start to breathe fast and immediately call Tori.

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*beep*

T- Nic-

N-WHERE ARE YOU?

T-At a restaurant nick. Why are you breathing so fast?

N- WHERES CHARLIE?

T-Home? What's happening??

N-SHIT. CALL 911 TO YOUR HOUSE NOW.

T-What?

N-I SAID NOW.

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I immediately hang up and I hear my door open, it's my mom.

"Nicky what's wrong?"

I start to cry uncontrollably

"We-have to go- Charlie. Now" I say between sobs and my mothers face becomes panicked.

She nods and we leave the house to get to him.

This cannot be happening. I was helping him. He was doing better. God I swear he was doing better.

I should've known, this is all my fault.

My mom rushed through red lights, after a few minutes we arrive and I rush out the car.

The door opens and I run upstairs. I open the door and i fall to my knees. I go over to Charlie. His lifeless pale body is on the floor. I grab his head.

"No no no, Charlie I'm here, Charlie. Charlie." I start to sob. This can't be happening.

"Charlie you promised. DAMN IT WAKE UP PLEASE YOU PROMISED." My mom comes into the room and starts to cry. She pulls out her phone and calls 911

CPR. Oh my god I have to do cpr. I go on top of Charlie and start to perform cpr.

"Please Charlie. Wake up. I'm here baby I'm right here." My shaky hands are on top of one another as I do my best to do this correctly.

He can't do this. This can't happen. He said he'd promise. He said he would tell me whenever he needed help. This is all my fault.

"Please Charlie. PLEASE" my voice is unrecognizable. Come on Charlie.

"I can't live without you please."

I suddenly hear paramedics enter the room.

"Hun get off of him we are going to help now."

"NO IM HELPING HIM."

"Sir, we need to do our job."

"NO." I feel a pair of warm hands and look around, my mom takes my hands and pulls me away forcefully.

"No. He can't.. mom please."

She cries and cradles me, they take Charlie body downstairs.

"I know baby I know." She cradles me and I start to cry in her arms. This can't be happening.

"CHARLIE? OH GOD NO." I hear Charlie's mom. I quickly get up and run downstairs. They are all crying. Tori, and everyone else.

"WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED." Janes harsh words make me jump, I can't breathe.

"He-texted- he loved me-and I.. it wasn't my fault. He tried to- oh god he tried to." The room starts to spin and my vision turns black.

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